My brother and just life and stuff

[Meh]

My co-worker was nice enough to take me to look at a couple of places tonight. (a condo and a house)

[Meh]

Just feeling loneliness tonight, having soup, had an okay day at work

Thought I had found a rental that would work out but I got cold feet due to lack of details etc.

[Hopalong]

I hate that alone-really-ALONE feeling. Hope it passes soon, Boat.

I will try conjuring up a peaceful, pleasant, clear, uncomplicated roomie sitch for you.
Let's test my feeble mental powers.

hugs
Hops

[Meh]

yah I feel slightly better sort of,    not quite as lonely exactly

[Meh]

Kind of just another day of feeling lonely.

Been raining all day, really ALL day.

Gonna have some cinnamon tea and take a shower and sleep maybe.

[Twoapenny]

I hope you find somewhere nice soon, both in your mind and your home.  We all need a sanctuary.

[Hopalong]

I wish you had a good, good buddy, Boat.

A couple of them. Life saving.

Isolation SUCKS. Hie thee to art class?
Go out for soup before class?
Join a walking Meetup?

hugs
Hops

[Meh]

Oh Thanks Two and Hops    

 

[Meh]

Just got off of work, got home. Haven't really done any thorough journaling here. Really wish I could write a bit, just get it out and get perspective if such a thing even exists any longer.

Probably I should bother writing this. I've been feeling lonely, feel too old to still live the way I have been with roommates, not that there is an age limit on that but still. One of the women I live with is older than me like in her 70's and she spends a lot of time with horses, equestrian type. Spunky.

So I guess I start to feel as if I am not anonymous on here. IDK

There are a couple of guys I have been messaging off of a dating site. I feel that I need to grow the ferk up because I don't have the confidence or guts to date people. In my head there are so many excuses that I come up with, I shoot myself down before anything even has a chance.

The two guys are too far away. Only one of the two seems like it could be sort of an okay thing.

Truth is I don't even know what to look for, I mean I have an inkling about some basics and such.


So yesterday I had a doctor's check up, since the insurance kicked in I figured I would go get a physical, it was pretty in and out and uneventful, maybe I should have seen somebody else because the doctor seemed like she was just trying to get me in and out the door. Then again maybe nothing major is going on with me.

The internet dating this is kind of sketchy etc. And since the two people don't meet in person first there is a lot of wiggle room for miss-perception I guess.

Soooooooo..... I guess that is something I wish I could do is stop being single. I think that since over the past few years that I have been on this board and my understanding of my family situation has evolved I don't have a fake feeling of family. I feel alone.

So there.

I'm rather pitiful too when the thought of meeting somebody comes up. Had 3 guys ask to meet me in person but it's just that I am terrified.

maybe more later

And I'm tired of looking at dude's profiles there are so many, I need to get past this, I really do. I need to grow the hell up.

 

[Hopalong]

You are NOT "not grown up."

You have been through hell and back, and you're a bit shy, and you're an artist, and you've had huge losses...
and you can just take your sweet time, and take some wee risks (meeting the sweet ones, JUST for coffee -- when you just wake up one day and really want to and not one second before...)

And read A Fine Romance by Judith Sills.

And breathe.

You're not going to be lonely forever, Bones. I bet it on a stack of something.

love,
Hops

[Meh]

Thanks Hops.

Having Salad and Chick soup. Doing laundry yadayadayada.

Looking through on-line dating sites reminds me of when a person clicks through a whole bunch of television channels and still doesn't find something to watch. Kind of a sign that something entirely different has to happen.

[Meh]

Was a busy day at work, no "bored time".   Some people say they get bored at this job, I have been so busy the past week. I think I should probably go back to sitting next to somebody who jabbers non-stop like I used to because the less work I do the less work there is.

Conversely the more work I do the more work there is.

Not having any progress on the dating site front... oh well.

Got a annual "bonus" at work :  $50.00   LOL   big whoop.

Today I realized that since my work schedule has been changed on me.. that I will only have a one day weekend     booooooooooooo      and now I have to work on the day I had scheduled a dental appointment.... Boooooooooooo

Sigh.

[Meh]

There is a new guy at work kind of quiet, I think he might kind of like me or something IDK, maybe I should try to talk to him. I shall at least pay attention to his name because I have no idea what his name is, I am very tunnel visional. Not even sure what visional means but it sounds okay.

[Meh]

Customer ordered something in November. Was out of stock. Finally shipped in Feb.

Cost was aprox. 1,000.oo

Snafu with shipment and transportation caused the product to be shipped back to the warehouse of origin.

It was at the local station meaning ready to be delivered to customer when our transport people cancelled the order.

Instead of us(retailer) calling the customer... the customer got a phone call from the drivers saying it was cancelled.

Our transport department calls shipper(drivers) and cancels. Customer calls us wondering what is going on...I Send a msg to my transportation dept... Can not get a response from my own transport dept and am unauthorized to tell them to deliver to customer. Our transport dept thought for some reason that 2 were accidentally being shipped to customer and that customer already got one. I talked to customer and the customer got NONE.  Everything that I can look up tells me only ONE ever shipped, I call driver, they only have one.

Customer waited patiently. Paid for it, had their money held up for months while waiting for it to be back in stock.

I contacted our transport people and a manager 4-5 times because I am lowly and don't have tools to do squat... say we have to get this delivered to customer who still wants it instead of it being turned around back to point of origin.  NO RESPONSE from my own company... to MYSELF... yep we can not talk to our own departments.

So I tell a manager where I Work that we have to get a communication to our transport people and give the customer some kind of compensation. He refuses... I get pissed off at him . Customer gets pissed off hangs up on me.

Customer calls back demands to talk to a different manager who then gives customer a credit...to keep the order and wait for us to get our act together. ...

My department lead tells me that it's not about the fastest resolution, it's about "customer service"...... WTF   WTF    WTF

Customer wants a refund.... we will not give her one because the item is still in transit and my company already paid freight to get it out to her...

NO fault to the customer.. she didn't change her mind after it was shipped SHE WANTED IT. She was reasonable and patient. My company was F;ing incompetent.

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Whole bunch of changes were made to our data base/website system...

Our case system for flagging orders isn't working. Instead of a link to a case form coming up.. it links to an email form.

So I told our computer people... this is linking to email instead it should link to a form to start a case..

The response I get from our computer people... "this button doesn't actually allow you to send out emails"

My response... "hmmmm.... but we use cases to track issues"   WTF the point is we can't make any new cases BECAUSE THE CASE FORM is not accessible now. Been broken for days.

Was working on a 8,000.oo-10,000.oo sale at the end of my shift...but since I am hourly am required to clock out.. can not stay and finish the quote.

I'm about ready to walk down to the store and buy some beer. berrrrrrrr

[Meh]

Just too tired