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Still need to work through early trauma
Gaining Strength:
God day. Able to face the music and tackle some difficult stuff - even while staying out of the pain and paralysis and avoidance. The voices from childhood bombarded me but I was able to face them and talk to them.
Building on this.
Hopalong:
Wow.
SO awed.
I hope you are feeling genuine pride, GS...
it is apt and you ARE allowed to glow with accomplishment!
Yes
you
ARE
You go, girl.
love
Hops
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: Gaining Strength on September 27, 2014, 10:52:35 AM ---Thanks Moonlight.
I went to my EMDR appointment yesterday afternoon. The building was locked and barred. I called the man, he never received my confirmation email. I'm in his book for Mon., the 7th. Trusting the delay will work in my favor. Not sure how, but trusting.
Making incremental progress. I am developing confidence that I can keep myself out of the abyss while sitting still, alone, (not doing avoiding behaviour.) today, I'm going to ramp it up and focus on this while I do chores. I'm beginning to get clarity on the unconscious voices causing such agony while I try to clear the forest.
Yesterday I heard," you can't do it. You ruined it last time."
So many memories of mother, father, brothers who, rather than stepping up to help, would sit in judgement of even simple tasks. It was pervasive.
I am now aware of these voices. Let's see if I can override them.
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Hi GS,
I've not been getting on the board that often so I'm reading your thread in fits and starts. I'm amazed at how well you're doing and how hard you're working at all of this. It is so, so tough - and you're doing amazing. I hope your EMDR session goes well for you.
You can do it. You are doing it. You're amazing to me. Lots of love xx
Gaining Strength:
I am so thankful for your encouragement Hops and Twopenny.
Gaining Strength:
Yesterday came with so many insights. I wish I had written them down because they seem somewhat elusive now. When they renter my brain I'll grab them.
Last night and today are huge battles. That is the way it has been with me as I make progress. It is not an easing into healing but a tumultuous battle, up and down.
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