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Twoapenny:
Wow, Lighter, what a busy few days, so much going on and all being dealt with, it seems!
Yes, making suggestions to people instead of doing it for them - some tasks are so simple. I've lived on my own for so long that I can cope with most household situations now. It amazes me that other people can't, simply because they haven't had to. So good for you to save yourself the driving and good for her to now have another bit of knowledge up her sleeve :)
What happened about the fridge, did it not arrive again? xx
lighter:
The fridge made it BUT they jerked me around....said couldn't promise, then delivered. They only run deliveries to Ports 2 days a week, bc it sometimes takes hours for one delivery...huge PaiTA for them.
Anyhoo, we're on the island, and things got heated the first evening, then the next morning, then one little bobble today, but I ignored it. I'm honestly flummoxed by overt drama, and chaos manufacture. Accepting there's nothing to be done is a relief, and after ,there's been productive dialogue. Enough to give me hope we'll get through this.
Thank God we didn't receive the freight on time is all I have to say. I'm sure I would have blown a gasket if I had that on my on top of me.
What's going right.....
The living room, dining room and kitchen areas are cleared out, spic and span and ready to go.
The shower drain was snaked and cleared, then bleached. We keep leaky coolers in there now.
The toilet has water hook up, whew. No more carrying buckets of water.
I Have air Conditioning I'm my private space!
We've improvised food prep with a hot plate, and hastily purchased set if pans.
We're catching fish off our beach, and I have a knife.
We improvised a fire pit from a grill top and blocks....very nice.
The boys built a lovely outdoor shower enclosure from the torn down deck boards. Looks great....love it.
We have a solar shower bag, so warm water showers are ours! Yes.
Hopefully we can get the new tiny fridge working tomorrow. Daily ice runs, and living out if coolers is something I'd rather not have to do much longer.
I've been piling rocks into cracks in my seawall....it requires heaving them up and over 5 or so feet if wall. My back is holding out.....feels fine, really.
The ocean, finding shells, picking rocks is replacement for moss farming right now. We're right at the ocean edge....so loud waves crashing. The moon's almost full....very bright.
One of my companions perfoms daily rituals with candles and blessings. We'll share a ritual at some point.... I think I have a ghost, besides this place being a time capsule from 14 years ago.
Finding youngest DD's ducky blanket unhinged me, where..tiny shoes and sarongs failed.....my husband's gray tee shirt.
About the ghost...has anyone ever been hit with water in a very dry area....out of the blue....no water source around? This time it was two handfulls....all down my back and left arm. Ive encountered little spritzes in the face before, but...this was down the wall....on the floor....delivered with force. I could see the precise direction it came from, based on the shape if the drops. There's nothing in that corner....it came from high up...above my head. Very odd.
The journey continues.
Lighter
Hopalong:
Glad you made it there, Lighter.
Sorry the first night was full of spats.
Glad you found yourself again in shells and rocks.
Sorry there's so much work ahead.
Glad you have companions with you.
Sorry about unexpected mementos and what they recall.
Glad you have a ghost?
Sorry the ghost has a dribble problem?
Laughter. When are the board games and laughter?
love
Hops
lighter:
Hops:
If there's a ghost, he's the least of my worries. And I have some rather large worries at the moment.
On the upside, we cooked a chicken in foil over charcoal grill last night with Spanish seasoning, potatoes, peppers and carrots...was so good I couldn't stop eating.
We also had a fire, beach chairs pulled around it, and the waves breaking 20 feet away. You'd think it was paradise.
Hops, did you read the book or see the movie Life of Pi?
Remember when Pi lived on the boat with the tiger? All the fierceness, the pitifulness, the aggression of the tiger... the walking on eggshells Pi did to get through his days.....
I think I'm Pi AND the fish the tiger needed to live. I'm feeling very thin....like I'm disappearing.... there's not enough of me to do this job maybe, under the circumstances. I'm reminded of times I had to believe I could control other people's behavior.....even though it was impossible..... I can't of course, but every terrible bobble I'm deeply shamed I failed....that I will fail again. Escalations in hostilities are shocking. Perhaps inevitable.
Ahhh.... I have to get more yummy chicken marinade soon.
::Shaking head::.
So.
Not.
Ok.
I need an Amazon bonfire, and Amazon spirits by my side.
Picturing that actually bucked me up.
:: Sigh::
Time to start another day. I wonder what fresh event will take place today.
Lighter
Twoapenny:
Lighter, the food around the camp fire, the waves crashing under moonlight, the warm showers and working toilet all sound idyllic. The rest of it is making my head spin just reading through it. Big project, lots of people, egos - I honestly think the world would be a completely different place if there were no such thing as ego - and memories - baby blankets and hubby's old shirt. Wow. So much going on on so many different levels.
All I can say is you're smart. You know which things are important and can't be left/delegated/patched up and which things can be put to the end of the list. You can speak, or stay quiet, depending on what works best for you when others are kicking off. Survival mode - this is what I need to do today. This is who will help. This is who will hinder. You don't need to be perfect all the time. It's okay if you lose your shit, too :) With you in spirit, Lighter, I really wish time travel were real and I could pop over to help you guys out from time to time and vice versa. Wouldn't that be amazing :) I hope it's manageable. Or bearable, whichever is more realistic. Keep us updated :) xx
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