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lighter:
Yes, very interesting this doc was so close by, and yet completely unknown.
All his reviews are 5 star. He comes highly recommended by the medical community (I trust, and respect.)
Will give results on dd's brain scans later: )
Lighter
lighter:
OK, the brain scans, and cognitive tests were pretty involved.... several hours.
They gage eye movements, in one test, and you see your child's eyes on the screen, big, and you can see exactly what they're doing alongside a graph. It can be replayed, and explained.... there's no light changes, so pupil changes in size are about stress for the brain. Movements up and down create more stress than side to side movement, btw.
Youngest had quite a bit of eyes not staying focused on the target.. a little ball, which explains why reading has always always always been so difficult for her. She has to go back and re until her brain fills in all the spaces her eyes popped past.
Also, her brain is revving on high all the time. Just revving, and it takes a lot of energy to do the simplest things. That's why she's so exhausted all the time, and I don't think she sleeps very well either.
We set up a treatment schedule for when summer starts. DD is relieved to see reasons why things are so hard, and relieved to know she can work hard, and change some of those things.
Oldest dd's assessment was today, and everything made sense to her. She signed on, and is looking forward to neurofeedback to begin too.
I haven't read one bad review. There are so many grateful patients who write notes, and post about it..... the details, the way their lives have changed, and how glad they are they found this doc.
::nodding::.
I feel like a weight's been lifted.
Lighter
lighter:
OK, my hip's been locked up, and in various stages of that for a while. Chiroprac friend got me on his table, and was shocked the joint wouldn't move. At all. He cracked, and popped me from head to toe, and unlocked it, then said to let the inflammation go down before doing more. That was 2 days ago.
I woke up, and had some problems with it....thigh feels like it was hit by a baseball bat, loss of power, and sometimes the muscles spasm. Very upsetting.
Today I babied it, after driving girls to school... sitting is the worst thing for it..... moved it around, and worked on the muscles..... it's feeling pretty normal. SUCH A RELIEF, but before I FELT the relief in my body and mind, I went out on the porch in a bit of despair..... the worst case scenarios were banging around my brain pan, and I couldn't shake it.
Once on the porch, I heard something at the other end.... I thought maybe a kerfuffle from the bucket holding a nest with many eggs a darling little bird tends to without fail. I went to see what was up, and there were 2 hummingbirds almost in my face. One chased the other, one went to the feeder, the other chased it to a nearby branch, they were off. Another hummer came around, and they've been pretty active ever since. I've never seen more than one HB, ever. They're very territorial... I guess it's mating season? Or... something? I was uplifted, and happy, and grounded back in the moment.... then aware of the feelings that brought me out, I felt them, processed them, and feel much better now.
Thanks Hummingbirds.
I've been doing easy yardwork.... weedwacking, and trimming branches.... nothing requiring I sit or squat much, and a nice neighbor came by to offer up all his rocks...... he's getting rid of all his flower beds. He wants less upkeep, just like me. We both feel great about this! So glad. He's as excited as I am, and willing to do all the labor to load, and drop them in my yard. YAY AGAIN!
My chiropractor friend bought tickets for a Beatles cover band tomorrow. Every year the teachers from a prestigious music school get together and cover an entire album.... just amazing to watch. This venue is lovely, and cool, and on the river. After that he'll adjust me, again, and see where I'm at from the last adjustment.
I've been stretching, and massaging sore muscles. I have to get on track, and stay there.
The house, and back porch are in good shape.... I'm enjoying them, and my girls.
I'm noticing the things dd18 does that brings up stress for me. Mostly, if I don't pick up the rope, she drops it too, and things go on just fine. It's when I react or respond to her hard NO! over everything from doing chores, to just eating what's been cooked, etc..... I have to stay in observation mode, and let her have it... not make whatever we're talking about ABOUT me.
If I didn't say before, we're seeing a family T we both really like. There's an attachment issue we have to work out, and that's the plan.
I booked youngest dd for her neuro feedback sessions, but not oldest dd, bc she's not willing to do anything outside attend the sessions. There's other things involved around nutrition, physical activity, sleep patterns that make it possible to get more out of the sessions, and that's going to be a condition. When she's ready, we'll make the appointments.
Both girls need their wisdom teeth out, and that's happening this summer.
I don't want to travel anytime soon, but the beach cottage has to be dealt with. I'm so sick of thinking about it.... so many moving parts, and it feels like they're all broken moving parts that depend on my MOVING them myself..... I can't depend on anyone on the island, 100%, thus this feeling of all the responsibility with zero control. Yes, Amber and Hops, I think about selling it all the time.
Lighter
Twoapenny:
Aw, Lighter, the humming birds sound so lovely! I'm glad the doc is giving so much good information; so useful to know and have points to work from. I'm sorry your hip is painful though, did you injure yourself or has that just come on? I hope that continues to get better; dealing with pain is very difficult and it's hard being forced to slow down. The upcoming concert sound nice. Bleurgh to the beach house! So much work for you, is it close to being all done now? It feels like you've done so much already xx
lighter:
Tupp:
The hip was gradual... I think a little injury I didn't much notice, then compensation, then tightness, then more compensation, and then the hip locked up, bc I didn't deal with it, and now I'm out of pain, feeling normal, and stretching daily to keep things aligned.
Another reminder about self care. A reminder not to suck it up, and soldier on.
We all need to stretch!
Lighter
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