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Mindfulness and codependence thread
Hopalong:
Needy pushy baby man, oh yeah
I had chronic severe anxiety for a long time and lots of those sensations sound familiar. ugh. So unpleasant feel so frequently yet unexpectedly off your pins.
Good for you to continue to search and inquire, Lighter. I WISH I could type better on this dumb thing. New laptop must happen soon as the unsupported used ones are driving me nuts.
Hang in there, and take your openness and curiosity with you to a neurologist. Do you ever take a friend along to such scary things?
Hugs
Hops
lighter:
It's currently 11
sKePTiKal:
It was -10 here this morning, Lighter. About the same tomorrow, then it starts to warm up again.
Very interesting T session and what you've found out. I hope you keep finding out more stuff about this and the connection to the dizziness.
lighter:
Amber, the session felt like something else, but T and I agreed.....it was about the original intended avoi for subject.
I make sure to check in with this wounded part daily.....and the protector part. I'm hoping this turns the volume way down on the boaties....maybe completely off. I can't for sure say it's gone, but it's almost unnoticed the last couple days.
Hops: I might not see a neurologist. Depends on how things go. I still see acupuncture guy and tend to most likely deficiencies. Hmmm. I will make appointments for youngest DD and I to have lab work soon. That makes sense.
I hope you figure out computer troubles soon. Your nimble word smithery is frustrated and that needs to be remedied😔My closet I had been studied as my sister threw many things into give away piles. I needed something immediately and decided to go limp and stop caring.
I don't really care, as long as my basics are there. At some point, I'll have energy and desire to buy more basics and I will. There's second hand shops with plenty to choose from, for sure.
I'm at acupuncture now....having meditated an hour and 15 minutes. It was unexpected, in that caring for the wounded infant morphed into extending care and compassion to a pretty roughed up Jesus,cash well. Just the three of us, bathed, comforted and tended to felt very right. I have a half hour to process and make notes here.
The journey continues.
Lighter
lighter:
Saw T earlier this week. Wanted to work on perfectionist part that wants things done her way.....always busy doing in social situations, has to do things in order and in exacting detail.
After I easing Tupp's post I realize I look down on most people's way of doing some things (cleaning) and find I get things from the practice.
Will get this down quickly...must run.
Working on collaborating better and releasing need to do things a certain way.
Asked where I felt that part.... She was fairly vibrating in belly button region....the focus made her jump like the spell slug in Spirited Away after the dragon threw it up.
Asked how I felt towards her....
Frustrated. Frustration asked to be fake seat in waiting room. Always takes a minute, but she went.
Focused on the part and she was as maybe 50 feet away, chin up....very defiant....very angry.
Came down to injustice and she was a black wirly dirvish of nails and teeth for a minute ..how she showed up, then a little sad 3yo.
Lots in between all that, but several times T asked if I was speaking to her OR was I blended with her? Some of both, frankly
That wasn't processed so homework is same.....check in with her, let her know she belongs....earn her trust.
I'm dealing with some stress and this morning I saw clearly.....I can be on her side, my sid as priority. I must be her advocate, always, and take her side.
I think one gets to these unprocessed places by ignoring and betraying parts.
That's how I see it on this very busy morning after finding NOTHING in 40 mouse traps and 2 clever 5 homemade 5 gallon bucket traps, one with a paper plate, one with a beer can, both what th ganger wire and peanut butter!
::smoothing p.j.s:::
The tree guy delivering tree tractor trailer loads Saturday, returning Tues maybe with compost and workers.
Contacting rangers and researching installed outdoor benches for events....and 100 other things.
Lighter
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