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Mindfulness and codependence thread
Hopalong:
LIGHTER.
This is fanfreakingTASTIC.
I'm very happy for you.
(And inspired for me.)
Hugs
Hops
lighter:
Thanks, Hops: )
When I think of getting to a more peaceful place, I think of getting my face off the glass.
I was used to having my face pressed up against the glass for years, and I was used to getting my face OFF the glass. One thing I never understood, until recently........
there were two sides to the glass.
I had choices... I could step back, and gain the same perspective I'd always had..... or I could lean into the glass/pain/discomfort, drop judgment, and.....
fall through to awareness around where that pain started.
I just had no idea, and it still feels like one of those tricks of SEEING a stereogram. You can't see it from just anywhere...... focused just any way. It takes practice, and I hope I'm not jinxing myself; )
The journey continues, and thanks for all the support, wisdom, and patience you've shared with me and the board through the years, ((Hops.))
Lighter
Twoapenny:
--- Quote from: lighter on December 13, 2019, 12:28:09 AM ---Thanks, Hops: )
When I think of getting to a more peaceful place, I think of getting my face off the glass.
I was used to having my face pressed up against the glass for years, and I was used to getting my face OFF the glass. One thing I never understood, until recently........
there were two sides to the glass.
I had choices... I could step back, and gain the same perspective I'd always had..... or I could lean into the glass/pain/discomfort, drop judgment, and.....
fall through to awareness around where that pain started.
I just had no idea, and it still feels like one of those tricks of SEEING a stereogram. You can't see it from just anywhere...... focused just any way. It takes practice, and I hope I'm not jinxing myself; )
The journey continues, and thanks for all the support, wisdom, and patience you've shared with me and the board through the years, ((Hops.))
Lighter
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Face pressed against the glass is a good way to describe it, Lighter, and I am hoping to get to a point where I can just do something without two dozen other things going on in my brain and body while I do it. Keep pushing forward is the key, I think. Try things, see what helps, what doesn't, put things down, pick other things up.
I have a friend who does Reiki. She tried it on me and nothing happened and I thought it was all nonsense. Then about an hour later the headache I'd had for three days just vanished in an instant. It was odd - in a nice way :) x
Hopalong:
"Odd in a nice way" is a perfect description of Reiki!
I think it has "Lighter" written all over it...
Hops
lighter:
Now I REALLY want to experience Reiki. I didn't see T last week. Forgot she had a retreat. I'm asking this week; )
Tupp, as I moved through my morning ablutions I thought about how my days are different since beginning T.
I noticed zero emotional charge when I moved a file off my bed. Normally, there's a chemical dump, and that sets the tone for the rest of my day. I could have been touching a spoon or laundry... just nothing. It was great!
Writing about it now, I think of it as shuffling a huge deck of cards, pulling out jokers as I go.... with the goal of removing all the jokers. The jokers aren't good or bad. They're just not necessary for the games I want to play now.
I needed those jokers for games I used to pay. They aren't good or bad. They no longer serve. The jokers are unprocessed memories, sensations and emotions... stories I guess, and it's just time for them to go.
OK... I'm going to deliver rambutans to the boy recovering from leukemia... 3 flats, his favorites, yum! This is a miracle, and we're so grateful he's responding to treatment in the best possible way: )
Lighter
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