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lighter:
Wasn't there a bunk house under way....or..... on the list of things to do?

THAT would have been SO HELPFUL, IME.

To have a space that's NOT IN YOUR SPACE,  but IS on the farm.

For Hol, for S, for her friends, your friends, B's dds if they're there.

We used to use have access to the guest cottage on the island and it
was
so
nice
to
have
that separate building.... even though it's just steps away from the cottage.  It made all the difference with regard to headspace.  Not fancy, just..... away.  Any distance is a relief.

People could mozy into the kitchen, from the guest cottage, but I always knew they'd back.  We could meet on the beach, or plan an outing..... with their stuff IN THEIR SPACE and my chaos in my space.  And there was always chaos.  And sand.  And WORK with little children going on.  I didn't want to be judged all the time.....  and I was one of those moms who let her kids run around they way they wanted..... in sarong and nothing else?  OK.  Naked? OK.  And everyone dragging in sand all the time...... just, NO.

I'm not the energizer bunny, though I'm sure I looked like one, just trying to remain sane, keep everyone fed.... heck.... a bunk room WITH a kitchen.  YES.

I remember little apartments in barns that seemed rustic, but I was drawn to them every time, bc...... I like my own space.

Lighter

sKePTiKal:
That idea got scratched off the list Lighter.
Partly I realized I didn't want that many people getting comfortable just hanging out here. Partly we NEED dedicated work spaces for different kinds of work.

The studio is the closest, facilities wise, to being separate temporary living space. I can sleep 10 in my house. Almost all of Hol's "guests" are experienced campers with their own gear. And she'll have a guest room and both her sofas are extra large & comfy.

The bunkhouse idea was when I was contemplating some living space for a semi-permanent group (without having a clear idea of what the purpose of that would be). I just got off on a tear with idea.

The internet is not playing nice with my idea of window shopping makeover ideas.  :mad: But instead I knocked a couple of to-do's off the post-it list for today.

sKePTiKal:
Is it possible to have PMS symptoms, long after menopause?

The past couple days - absolutely NOTHING has gone right around here and both Hol & I are one spark away from melting down. Not with each other; just at "stuff".

Even went through the releasing all the crap I can't do anything about... and I'm still at that point where I'm a totally incensed bitch or going to break down in tears.

-Tech issues - last 3 weeks/month (couldn't even load any pages to window shop girly stuff yesterday)
-Contractor issues
-Buck is super busy managing things on his end; dealing with not breaking down in tears Sat; when he drops D off at college.... (I'm trying to help with that, but there is only so much to be done about feelings; they simply pass when they do)
-weather has turned gray & gloomy & wet; there have been some interesting mist effects to at least keep the scenery interesting but the trees are starting to turn and we HAVE to get things that are going to the hut, to the hut so I can finally function again & organize my spaces.

In. Out. In. Out. Patience; this too shall pass.

Hopalong:
Tears
are
good.

Releasing
healing
designed for a reason

Detoxifying
letting go
expressing stress (instead of holding it in like I did for way too long thus setting myself up for stroke, arrythmia, etc)

No
more
fears
of
tears!

CRY. It doesn't mean failure, disaster, collapse, inadequacy, weakness.
It means: Ahhh, good. Got that out.

huuuuuuugs
Hops

sKePTiKal:
Oh, no worries there Hops! I have a whole selection of Outlander clips that are guaranteed tear-jerkers. It doesn't matter HOW it's initiated, I find.

Also saw an Amazon Prime movie that wasn't quite what I anticipated from the description - revolved around a lesbian love affair - called Summerland, that was quite good overall. It was funny, sensitive, heartbreaking, but had a happy ending. I'm a sucker, I think for a genre of British movies/series that I don't know what to call it. Lots of descriptive visual "narrative" and telling of the story through dialogue/plot evolution. Anything that isn't just pandering to kneejerk emotional "buttons".

American film & tv simply don't have much on offer - and haven't since the 70s pretty much - of things like this. Life, love, human nature and gentle humor. One series Hol & I found on Netflix, I can recommend is positively HILARIOUS in the old sit-com style is the Kaminisky Method. Micheal Douglas plays an acting teacher in his 50s/60s... whose best friend is played by Alan Arkin (who is GENIUS in this series). Both of us laughed so hard we practically peed ourselves. Good fiction is my constantly faithful refuge and "go to"...

I think I'm starting to feel the falling apart of the conversational skills of people online. This is about the last place I frequent where we all talk TO each other, rather than AT each other - or just to hear ourselves talk. That's contributing to my crankiness. And then, I also think the full moon is too. Buck is busy and doesn't have as much time to spend with me, even in short snippets. But Hol's friend M just arrived... so that may be including me at some point today or this evening.

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