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Meh

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Re: Anything
« Reply #1665 on: February 19, 2016, 12:41:47 AM »
Feeling tearful. Took the sexting too far. Having a quiet night drinking a beer and listening to music by myself.

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« Reply #1666 on: February 29, 2016, 03:39:05 AM »
I think about the board but haven't been coming much when I do come I'm void of anything to say, I don't feel private, I don't feel very much, I feel numb, I feel pointless, I feel like a negative nancy.

I feel like I am stuck in an internal prison. Can I write this on a dating profile ??  Of course not.

At some point not feeling loved morphed into really feeling unlovable.

This is all that is on my mind this evening. Been binging on music and Sunday behaviors.

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« Reply #1667 on: February 29, 2016, 07:28:38 PM »
I love you, Boat!

(You're allowed to make mistakes.)

Stop beating up my friend who is remarkable and creative and enduring, himme?

Hug--a real comforting one...

Hops
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Richard's new photo/ If the board ever went away
« Reply #1668 on: March 22, 2016, 12:06:56 AM »
For a moment I had a fear of what it would be like if the board wasn't here any more :(    For a second when I saw the new photo, I thought there might be a message saying that the board was going to be retired :(   I don't know why I had that idea. Just random mind trickery maybe.

I also have been getting nightmares and such

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« Reply #1669 on: April 01, 2016, 09:57:07 PM »
We're here, Boat! And so are YOU!

(And if anybody disappears, well Jesus has that covered.)

You
are
safe

but
you
still
need
3-D...etc.

love
Hops
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« Reply #1670 on: April 11, 2016, 12:16:57 PM »
A Blessing

Just off the highway to Rochester, Minnesota,
Twilight bounds softly forth on the grass.
And the eyes of those two Indian ponies
Darken with kindness.
They have come gladly out of the willows
To welcome my friend and me.
We step over the barbed wire into the pasture
Where they have been grazing all day, alone.
They ripple tensely, they can hardly contain their happiness   
That we have come.
They bow shyly as wet swans. They love each other.
There is no loneliness like theirs.   
At home once more,
They begin munching the young tufts of spring in the darkness.   
I would like to hold the slenderer one in my arms,
For she has walked over to me   
And nuzzled my left hand.   
She is black and white,
Her mane falls wild on her forehead,
And the light breeze moves me to caress her long ear
That is delicate as the skin over a girl’s wrist.
Suddenly I realize
That if I stepped out of my body I would break
Into blossom.

--by James Wright
"That'll do, pig, that'll do."

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« Reply #1671 on: April 21, 2016, 12:51:20 AM »
You're COOL, ((((TT)))))

xo
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« Reply #1672 on: May 08, 2016, 04:32:27 PM »
Wished her happy mother's day in a terse, text message out of obligation. Nothing Special.

Watching a tv series (Marvel's Daredevil) with a line in it "Guilt can be a good thing, it's a soul's call to action, the indication something is wrong, the only way to mend your heart of that, is to correct your mistakes and keep going until amends are made". A different way of looking at guilt I guess. My mother complained about guilt being put onto her.

Just now made egg tacos for a very late Sunday breakfast. Cleaned, some spring cleaning.

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« Reply #1674 on: May 22, 2016, 09:46:52 AM »
I think this is extraordinary.

Hopeful. Powerful.

Thank you.

Hops
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« Reply #1675 on: May 30, 2016, 02:28:04 AM »
Nothing to say, just sort of skimming by. Have to work tomorrow, its a holiday and I have a mild cold and etc.

Been watching lots of cooking related documentaries and what not. Amazing how many there are. On one hand it's like watching television for hours on end which is seen as brain melting on the other hand I am fascinated and not bored at all and i consider it a happytime sort of. Meh

Also been considering buying a car, I don't really love vehicles, it's more of an expensive practical purchase and it's not very fun to think about at all.

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« Reply #1676 on: May 30, 2016, 05:24:08 AM »
I've been doing the same thing with Alaska related shows.
Must be Sea's influence! Something about folks who are brave enough to live
subsistence in circumstances that would send me whining for the nearest waffle house...
is encouraging. And the National Geographic one, Port Protection, is riveting to me.
It's about community as much as hardship and resourcefulness.

I'm sorry you have to get a car, Boat. It sure is a strain on a survival income.
I hope you can find something reliable that won't knock you back too much.

Hops
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« Reply #1677 on: June 26, 2016, 08:13:32 PM »
Need to buy a new phone. Experiencing selection paralysis or whatever they call it when there are too many options. Decision indecision.

I think that probably I need to give myself decision deadlines.

Decision Fatigue
« Last Edit: June 26, 2016, 09:57:27 PM by Garbanzo »

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« Reply #1678 on: June 27, 2016, 01:34:21 AM »
I went with Ting dot com (average bill about $23/month for my cell service) plus a Moto G phone I ordered from the same site. Ting uses the Sprint network. No contract. I've been very pleased.

Frugally,
Hops
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« Reply #1679 on: June 27, 2016, 12:33:37 PM »
Cool Hops. First time I have ever heard of Ting. I'm looking at it right now. This might be exactly what I am looking for as there are some months when I only make two phone calls on my phone. Also I really don't need the internet 24-7
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