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[Hopalong]

Well I nearly blew their hair off with the fans on high,
but everyone was very careful and cooperative.



If cases climb any faster here though I'm going
to suspend. Another person I know (the fourth)
is down with it. I can still invite folks to visit outside.

hugs
Hops

[lighter]

Hops:

LOL....
 "nearly blew their hair off" just so funny to me. 

You're fully vaccinated, proactive and careful. 

I hope you don't have to suspecd your gatherigs.  They sound joyful!

Lighter

[Dirty Hippy]

I want a haircut. It's just sort of getting on my nerves. Maybe I should just braid it out of the way. To be honest, I don't even brush my hair. It started for a practical reason, it's sort of curly and NOT brushing was an actual method of styling it. Like i would put a little bit of some kinda hair goop and kinda squeeze my hair together and then people would say "you have perfect curls" and it was easy and like 2 minutes of effort. That was a long time ago. Now I don't look in the mirror much I just don't. I think my hair has gotten more frizzy like more stray hairs on top. This sounds really self obsessed but I think I'm finally fed up with my self neglect.

There was once a hair product I liked that was truly some simple organic type thing but then the company started charging like 3-4 times as much and changed the formulation so it's a bunch of dimethicone. So I started putting Curel hand lotion in my hair out of laziness I mean the lotion is just sitting there and it has dimethicone in is as does everything. Anyhow hair is inconsequential but you know if you neglect everything including one's hair a person can start to look "crazy" the crazy on the inside starts to show on the outside. Ughhh


Since the covid thing happened I learned I could just trim my own hair for free and save money. It doesn't look bad but it's basic and boring.

Of course haircuts are about renewal or something.

Phooo just burnt frozen sweet potato on the stove top I guess I turned it up too high. I've done this at least 5 times. I just set something up and forget it. I looked out the window and for a second was surprised it was "raining" and then realized I turned the hose on. This is maybe encapsulating my mental state. Furrr maybe I should write more. I'm not too fond of this board anylonger for whatever reason I guess because it's the internet. Not exactly private. Lurkers etc.

[Dirty Hippy]

So kinda of pathetically this person giving YouTube advice, I know a bad place to get info sometimes, but she is admitting that she knew depression is not caused by chemical imbalance but went along with the farce anyhow.

I've always thought depression is a result of social, emotional, economic issues etc.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QsZqbrFTUm0&t=114s

[Dirty Hippy]

Just saw a couple of shooting stars one right after another so I googled it and there is a meteor shower happening.
Perseid meteor shower. Sort of in the South Western sky I guess.

Was out walking before that as the sun went down in the evening and my next door neighbors? were being strange and standing in the dark next to their car? with face masks on outside. Weirdos.

I walk up and down the block regularly and in the evening too and their doberman pincher always barks at me.

They must be really paranoid that someone wants to break into their car. 

I probably shouldn't walk around at night but I do it's nice and there is some kind of strange loud bird that comes out and sounds like something from Jurassic Park. I have no idea what sort of birds they are. Pretty large though, I thought I saw one flying. Maybe they are owls? idk. 

[Dirty Hippy]

This day feels like it has been going and going and going it's very odd.

About a year ago I suspended or closed my facebook account not thinking I would want to use it again.

Now I have tried to make a new account yesterday and it's giving me an error message that I don't understand plus I can't contact them without an account. I guess this is Meta world.

I'm not sure what decision they are even talking about. This is what I saw when I opened an account. I will probably delete this post it has nothing to do with the board.

you disagreed with the decision
ON AUGUST 14, 2022
Check back here for the result.
Your account is not visible to people on Facebook, and you can't use it.
What happens next
It usually takes us just over a day to review your information.
If we find your account does follow our Community Standards, you’ll be able to use Facebook again.
If we find your account doesn’t follow our Community Standards, it will be permanently disabled and you won’t be able to disagree again.

[sKePTiKal]

Sounds like you said something that upset the censors at Facebook, Mouse.

So, because nothing is more important in this world that having access to FB... they're going to punish you for disagreeing with their value system. Which they do by denying you your account.

It's kinda like that Groucho Marx line, about not joining any club that wouldn't have him. Personally, I don't see the attraction in any social media and IIRC, studies have shown it increases a sense of isolation, alienation and lonliness. Discussion forums function differently, somehow. Back when the only two choices were chat rooms or forums, I much preferred the forum for actually talking TO people.

Maybe coz it's "slow" enough for people to share more than a simple, off the top of the head reaction.

[Dirty Hippy]

@ Skeptical

Yes that is what it sounds like but I haven't posted on Facebook for about a year. It gave me that error msg before I could even use a newly made account.

[Dirty Hippy]

"Brussels ISIS bombing survivor Shanti De Corte, 23, dead by euthanasia"

"'NEVER FELT SAFE' Woman, 23, who survived ISIS bomb attack but couldn’t live with the trauma ‘euthanised’ in Belgian clinic"

"Brussels airport attack survivor is euthanized after struggle with trauma"

Also look up Sarco Pods, luxury suicide machines. Everything is a money business. Birth, death, everything $.

[Dirty Hippy]

And the nomination goes to.... for distinguished WORD of the year....

Merriam Webster has picked GASLIGHTING as word of the year. Now, imagine a 17 year old in a Marxist praxis intervention program trying to resolve it. Oh well.

https://www.merriam-webster.com/words-at-play/word-of-the-year

[sKePTiKal]

There certainly has been a LOT of gaslighting.

But I learned (the hard way) way back when... that NO ONE can tell you what to think or feel. That's all you. A person gives up a bit of their autonomy, if they simply cave under the gaslighting and give up trying to determine their own reality.

Ain't doin' that anymore. 

[Dirty Hippy]

Was reading articles that claim between 9%-13% of the population have personality disorders.

Could be any kind of PD I guess.

It's actually a very high rate isn't it. I have no idea if this is true or not it just appears to be generally what is written.

There are some very influential people that frankly seem like awful people.

The term "discomfort" has now been popularized in justice jargon. When I read the context of these things it sounds really mentally unhealthy. It sounds like sadism but with the authority of scholarship behind it.

Something is wrong in schools and I don't think it's a moral panic.

[sKePTiKal]

Where did the idea that it's possible to live life without any effort, strain or difficulty come from?  This subliminal expectation seems to be at the root of a lot of people's "UNsync" with life and themselves. And sometimes, even worse things.

Where did the idea come from, that it was healthy to teach people (specifically young developing people) that no one ever REALLY fails at things? To me, this is one of the most destructive "trends" to ever show up in educational theory. Precisely because failing is a necessary aspect of one of the longest lasting types of learning - trial and error. Many scientific theories that we take for fact now... as well as many other aspects of life - say, cooking or bread baking - involve persisting to try again, changing this or that, despite "failure" in a specific attempt. Removing failure from education, to me, sends the implicit (but wrong) message that success doesn't cost anything at all - and it's all around us like the air we breathe.

How many times did caveman societies try to hunt mammoths - only to miss a throw or be trampled before they learned that success most usually came from timing and teamwork? What if they'd given up? Or been convinced they were "mighty hunters" despite not bringing back food?

[Hopalong]

I think the only thing possible is to focus on identifying this disorder in others and avoid those people. Or if it's essential to interact, make huge sustained effort to train yourself to not react or to under-react to the cruel or frustrating or unfair things they do, for the sake of your own health.

[Hopalong]

I've had very long cycles of this and am also often circadianly upside down, Mouse. I can relate. Everybody's got their own path through--I hope you find relief.

The rest of this isn't advice, just me nattering about myself (as usual). I just wind myself down as best I can. The recent more regular exercise is really helping, and the SAD light every morning first thing, up to an hour. I had been so sedentary for so long I forgot the benefits of being physically tired. Duh.

I'm not on anti-anxiety meds but have benzos on hand for anxiety if need be. Haaven't opened the bottle but it's a reassurance to know it's there. I don't help myself with screen time but if I switch to an anodyne or benign film or listen to StoryCorps, that helps the worry cycle not start up. https://storycorps.org/ I've never gotten into podcasts because I don't have the right bedside setup, but I should. Meditation things, for example.

I'm getting better about doomscrolling, not consuming as much scary/negative stuff online. I still read news in the AMs but for less long, and not late at night mostly.
I have caffeine, two cups tea in the mornings. Then I'm cut off or I'd never sleep.

Hope it eases, Mouse. I know what hell worry can be.

hugs
Hops