Personal experience of 40 years in the desert, appocalypse, all those sevens(chakras) all those fours (mandalas), Trials of Job, dark night of the soul. what do you think they are talking about? It is not just for the chosen few but right in front of you you lucky girl. It is death, it is rebirth,it is the the opportunity to die over and over again, it is your privelege, it is your birthright,it is the muck, it is real, it is the subtext of society, religion, spirit, breakfast, luch, and dinner,mud and metaphor.
Beyond the stastistics of labels, "depression","chemical imbalance","therapy", comes your very unique experience of being a human who knows herself. The ups come with the downs, expect it all, recognize all your parts, remember, whatever you are experiencing is only a part of you, the "you" that emerges at the end will be thicker, richer, with honey in the heart, more than you can imagine from the middle of the desert. always trust there is a future perfect you who is waiting for you with loving open arms. This is your perfect gift to yourself, remember to savor your path, your pain, your feelings, remember in the darkest hours,you can surround even that with love. There is something wonderful coming it is calling to you, and it is your pillar of flame in the desert. The desert is the place to drop all the baggage all that is not "you", to learn trust, surrender, grace not as words or symbols but as intimate direct experiences of your SELF. Love it, eat it, bless it , it (whatever it is) is your gift, you are your own bliss.