Bunny, sorry I'm coming in so late on this thread, I was dealing with a buncha messes and couldn't get to the board.
But I wanted to thank you for sharing your emotions with us. Crazy sounding of me to say that, maybe, based on my sharing my own a little too much, a lot of the time... but it means a lot that you would trust us and open up to us the way you have.
I hope you are able to be friends with this fellow - his life sounds a bit like mine in terms of everyone dying - so he may be bitter, but it may also be temporary.
Sorry I wasn't here earlier when I could have been of more use, but I am really glad to see you feeling better about this. Go bunny!
((((((((((bunny))))))))))