it seems to me there are two issues here: your relationship with God ( unconditional ) and your relationship with the N ( highly conditional )
But I will say this from experience- the route to God needs to be a personal spiritual quest ( for me involving contact with other developing people, nature and music etc ) rather than following a described path laid out by any MAN...for so many religions seem to be governed if not by Ns, by people who are unintuitive, cruel or judgemental. They have in their quest for power ( at first for themselves, then for others ) lost sight of what God is. Simply GOOD.
I believe in a God which is simply to me 'the spirit of conection which moves upon the face of the earth'.
I also love that Ghandi quote: GOD HAS NO RELIGION.
To me God is peace, not always understanding or even acceptance; but a transcendence of human conditions.
I sought God through the Bible, and found passages there which spoke to me, but much which awakened my anger against injustice.
I joined the Unitarian Church and ( here in the US at least ) found a church without God at it's heart was worthless- a social club where people were able to make excuses for themselves and their behaviour and call it freedom.
God be in our hearts, and in our understanding....
That's what I believe now: that like anything else we have to leap free....take a 'leap of faith' as it were, to believe what feels wholesome and right to us, and if we are to help another on a path to the same spirituality, it is with the ultimate humility, gentleness and acceptance no matter what they choose.
Anything else is a trap, to keep us in a human plan. If it's a N-plan, especially bad.
Though I have read about N-ism that the person feels they are God.
That is an illusion, not only for the N but their victims; for God is what is real, how to overcome, how to survive intact and still have love.
