can anyone help? im convinced my mother is "n" my question is about one of my sisters. this sister, i have always thought, leads a life thats like a cabon copy of my mothers. this sister and her children seem to be "favorates" my mother disowned me and one other sister, but kept the carbon copy sister close.
this sister of mine, lives across the road from my mother, she has bought an identicle house and she has begun to make this house very similar to my mothers house. even down to the conservatory is identicle. my sister sent her kids to the same school we all went to, and she has the same expectations for her kids as we all did. now its easy to understand now why my mother choose this source of supply as my sister is very needy and is at my mothers beck and call, agreeing with everything my mum says or does. she does not think for herself or seem too.
i have 2 questions. firstly, could my sister be a "n" or could it be she mimicks her mother as a way of gaining and seeking attention from her as well as feeling thats the only way she can feel accepted??
now, the other side which i am gravely worried about. my mother never wanted girls. she only wanted boys and made that plainly obvious and we were constantly reminded of that fact! now all of us daughters had boys. my mother seemed to pick a boy from each family which was "favorate, special" i think it was the cycle beginning over again and she was recreating her life with these boys. but anyway, years ago, my mother would do something that i didnt aprove, but dare not question. she would encourage the boys to stick their tongues out and then she would get her tongue and touch theirs, but then make a joke and go erghhhhhhhhh! she would repeat this a few times, like a game, but to me i felt sick as it just didnt seem right.
now, after reading about "n" i have been worried about my nephews. im worried my 2 nephews are going to be sexualy abused in some way. i know they are going to be used, just like all us daughters were. my sister, the choosen one would be blissfully unaware, but obviously if she is "n" shes not going care either way. i havnt spoken to my sister for 2 years, as she is classic "follow my leader" she disowned me and the other sister along with my mum.
what do you guys think? should i be worried about my nephews? do you think there is a threat of sexual abuse? what can i do? its one thing to behave like this with me, i got out and i thank god i did. but my poor nephews dont realise their fate!
and why do i feel paranoid, kind of like a horror movie where a person goes insane! the world of "n" is awful!! and why do i feel cheated, that i wanted to hurt my mother the way she hurt me, but know thats never going to happen!!! arghhhhhhhhhh!!
