Mom's ill...this may be serious

[Healing&Hopeful]

Hoppy hon

I hate the dentist... hope it's nothing too major and you take care ok?

Love H&H xx

[Portia]

Hiya H&H, just a vote for dentists here! Please don’t hate them, at one point they had one of the highest suicide rates amongst professions in the UK because they felt undervalued and hated by patients. Please love your dentist! Hate plaque and bacteria and gum disease!

When I had the screws put in I was only locally anaesthetised (my choice). When they’d finished the drilling (which felt like it was going up to my eye socket) I asked for the mirror to have a look. The main man said ‘no’ and I baulked ‘why not?’. He answered ‘I’ve had too many people faint in the chair!’. I couldn’t insist but I was mightily annoyed. It’s my mouth! Haha. Weird or what? Yes I am.

Oh yes, another major annoyance. I was attending a hospital for this treatment and my brown cardboard file had these words printed on the outside: NOT TO BE HANDLED BY THE PATIENT 
so i made a point of 'handling' it as often as possible.

[Healing&Hopeful]

Hiya Portia hon…. Ok, maybe hate is too strong a word, but I don’t like have my mouth and teeth poked about and I never look forward to going to the dentist… my next appointment’s in Aug and already I get the nervous feeling in my stomach.  You take care?.... H&H xx

[mum]

Hoppy, glad to hear things are all right for now.

 Most people hate the dentist, but I have times when I feel like in the dentist chair I cannot DO anything, or get anything done, and no one can bug me to do something...(can you tell I am a hyper "do-er" type?) so it's a chance to me to have some FORCED relaxation (except for that damn drilling sound!!!).
Tomorrow I go for hand surgery again, and I am LOOKING FORWARD to a day off of work!!! How sick is that?

But back to you and your mom.....I am glad she is finding something to appreciate in this....and that you are as well. I will continue to send love and light.
Mum

[Hopalong]

Well, they got the titanium rod halfway in (yup, it was for an implant, Portia--I had a baby tooth with no permanent tooth beneath it...it had come out some time ago) --but midway through the procedure a "check where we are" x-ray showed they had to abandon it...something about the nerve in my jaw showing too close, risk of nerve damage if he continued. Doggone. I was somewhat disappointed and frustrated since now I've got to get a bridge...but heck, no big deal.

Mom's doing well and is not expecting me to visit again until tomorrow, so I'm savoring the downtime alone. Not hurting much so far.

And I'm feeling a sense of peace and release about Mom. What will be will be...and thanks, Sugarre. I really am starting to recognize I did the best I could, and most of the time it was patient, generous and nurturing.

thanks,
hops

[Sela]

Hiya Hoppy:

I'm a bit late coming in here (been out of town the last few days) but I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for the struggle you're going through with your mum being in hospital and all the stuff that goes along with that.  I'm glad you wrote:

I really am starting to recognize I did the best I could, and most of the time it was patient, generous and nurturing.

That's really good to hear because from what I recall you have tried so hard to be and do those things and it's important to give yourself credit and be as kind to you.

((((((Hoppy))))))

Sorry about the disappointing dentist visit.  Hopefully it'll be all fixed up next time.

Keeping you and your mum in my thoughts and prayers.

Sela

[Hopalong]

Aw, Sela.
You are so kind.

Such a big heart.
I thank you most genuinely.

Love,
Hops

[Hopalong]

She must be bulletproof.
Mom's weathered emergency exploratory surgery (they found and fixed an intestinal blockage Weds.) and she's up in bed in the hosp., reading the papers from cover to cover, working crosswords, and charming everyone who comes in to visit. Her biggest issues are boredom and weakness (for the latter she'll need several weeks of nursing home PT, which she's not looking forward to). But her spirits are good and she is amazing.

I am honestly savoring the time alone, however.
Just me and the dog...extra sleep, not being caaa!aaaaaled for this and that.

But...no guilt. We've both done the best we can.
Job interview next Weds....wish me luck!

Hops

[Hopalong]

Thanks so much, Stormchild!

(If I get the new job I'll earn a good deal less which will make things precarious, but the mental health benefits of such a nicer atmosphere would likely be worth way more than the difference. Hope so, anyway.)

Hops

[moonlight52]

Hops  ,   I do hope you get the job you wish . Following your bliss  is so good for your mental health . Any where you go the atmosphere is so much nicer.I am glad your moms better and i am sending heartfelt love to you.
            Moon

[Hopalong]

Hey Bean,
I'm not feeling resentful. She went through a horrible night of violent illness and it really distressed me. She's content and well cared-for, it's a nice hospital and the nurses are very patient. Once she's at the nursing home she'll be a lot unhappier, but I will restrict myself to half-hour visits after work, and I'm sorry, but that's all I'm going to be able to manage. Last time she was in there, she had so many urgent demands for me to fetch this and that, that it wore me out. I'll set limits at the outset this time--have already told her I'd come by after work every day. The rest of the day will be work and my own well-being...

What I'm feeling most is relief that she is okay for now, and equal relief that I have a respite at home. The peace...

Hops

[seasons]

Hops,

What I'm feeling most is relief that she is okay for now, and equal relief that I have a respite at home. The peace...

I'm so happy to hear all is going well.  Your one amazing lady. ((((hugs)))
Oh, and the best of luck to you and your new job prospect!

[Hopalong]

Thanks, Seasons!
I am drained but okay.
Short-term struggle is to focus on yet another freelance thingie (sound familiar)?

Here's the truth: I have a terrible resistance to doing things I don't want to do.
I work really hard at work, and as a caregiver. I am very responsible in those ways.

But when it comes to adding more things to the plate, I reeeaaaaallllly drag my feet. In particular, when it's something I find both boring and stressful at the same time, and there's no outside motivation. (Such as a boss or parent) Left to motivate myself, I can doze away a day.

Hmmm. Big thing to think about there.

Thanks for the luck for Wednesday! I'll need it and I'll be sure to update everybody.

Hops