oh my....
I didn't mean that I was
leaving... just that I was going to be here a lot less often
You're all very kind and I'm awfully touched but it's a little embarrassing too... sort of like waking up in the middle of my own funeral...
[Snort. I just had a very monty pythonish mental image of myself sitting up, looking around, going 'oops, sorry' smacking myself in the head with a cast iron skillet & falling back - that'd be a little
too polite!]
What's going on is that I realized I've been here mornings and evenings for many many days in a row - and I have to put some of that time to other uses, or I'll spend the rest of my life housebound and isolated in realspace.
The problem is, this is such an incredible group of people that it's really hard to tear myself away. And I'd be a total idiot or worse to deny that having to articulate issues, face situations, and deal with various things I've dealt with here has been a tremendous stimulus to growth and healing for me.
Not to mention that it seems as though I actually do some good here, from time to time, and that's the central thing for me. To completely leave the only place in the entire world where I am actually managing to make a contribution [as opposed to being used and taken advantage of] [which is, I think, a major contributor to the ulcer] [although, God knows, I try like heck to contribute elsewhere too] [which means I need to find some other elsewheres] would be worse than folly.
So I'll probably be here a couple of times a week - but twice per week for maybe 2 hours total as opposed to twenty or more times for ten or fifteen hours total is a big change.
And I'm going to try to be much more scarce on weekends, I have some projects in mind that I need to start working on, and that's the only time I can do it since I work a 40 hour week...
Thanks everyone for the kind wishes
((((((((((Everybody))))))))))
PS I think the ulcer is actually beginning to heal.
