Hi Everyone!!!!!
I missed you so much, but didn't have much access to a computer while on vacation. I hope you are all doing well, and welcome to anyone who joined in the meantime. I am looking forward to going through the past month's messages and topics.
Before I left, TT asked a question. It was to the effect of, "Has anyone ever gotten better?"
TT, I have to say, thanks to all of you, your suggestions and support and information, I do feel like a different person after this trip. I feel that I have been completely set free from all that held me back before.
For one thing, upon seeing my sister, one of the first things she said to me was that she realized/knew that mother treated me differently and did not like me. TOTAL VALIDATION. She and I have repaired years of hurt which my mother caused between us.
I was able to see how absolutely pathetic my mother's behavior is. I will detail some of it in another thread. It was tremendously horrible and embarrassing. But it also gave credibility to everything I have researched and everything you all have pointed out here.
At any rate, what about ME? Well, I am none of the things I believed I was because of the way my mother treated me. I am a well adjusted, well liked adult with my own super family. I am not responsible for them. I was treated horribly by her, but that can never be changed. I have no emotion towards her. I just feel like I am watching some sort of bizarre play when I am near her.
So, thank you all!!!!!!! I still plan to stick around. I'd like to help pass along some of the insight I've had, and share some of the stories... gosh will you all relate... when I get a bit more time.
Love, Beth
