Wow, thank you all for such warm welcomes. I had an infuriating phone conversation with my ex, and immediately thought about you all when I hung up the phone. I'm a little better now and will probably do a little venting later, but for now I just had to thank you for such a gracious welcome.
As far as the music, Tiffany, yes, I do use it as a medium to express my thoughts, feelings, hopes and fears, and as part of my healing journey. It's been a life long journey to reclaim my voice, singing and otherwise, from an abusive childhood. Didn't write my first song until I was 34. Most of my songs reflect this healing journey or are inspired by the human spirit and dreams of others, usually a social cause I may be involved in. It's hard to pinpoint the genre...some songs have a little Asian flavor, one is very Celtic...some sound New Age, others pop. I don't know. I just write what I write.
I admire your ability to harmonize and sing back up in that way. I've always been the front person, but could rarely hear anything other than the main line, and improvising? No way.
But it's different for me now. I'm much more fluid and flexible, and I can do some measure of improvising. I no longer have to rehearse everything to death and have every note exactly in place before I perform. I can hear melodies in my head...before there was nothing, just a huge void...I think the void within that creative space reflected the larger void of my life.
Anyway, it's been a long journey, and I'm singing and writing and speaking now as never before. Now, finally in my 50's...I turn 51 this November, I feel like I'm coming alive...living a genuine life, or at least, a more genuine life, for the first time.
I'll be glad to share lyrics and such in time. I know it sounds funny, because I perform my songs and in some pretty unusual places, but this place is different. Despite it being a public board, the energy here is very intimate, and when you share here, you share in depth. So singing takes on a new meaning here, because the eyes who read and the ears who hear do so with a greater depth and a greater seeing, than a "normal" audience. Does that make sense?
And it is a rather interesting coincidence, isn't it, Hope? Neat that you found my other work shortly before I posted here! Except I don't believe in coincidence, however, I am delighted with serendipitous events, and it sounds like this might be one of them.
So happy I made my first post (again), and again, to all of you, thank you so much for your warmth and welcomes.
Demian
