Lost My Job and Doubting Myself

[Hopalong]

Thanks, Mud.
Good reminder that I need to get down on my knees (been thinking of doing some praying that way anyway!)

There certainly is a lot of excellent dental care going on around here....I have a guilty secret. Because I'm addicted to nicotine gum and chew it literally all the time, I get away w/o flossing and never need scaling. (My dentist is funny and said, if you tell anybody I said that I'll have to kill you...). I think I'm going senile and told that anecdote already. Anyway, if anyone's into CONSTANT sugarless gum-chewing, maybe that would do the same, once the gums are back into shape?

Mud, more good thoughts to you and the Mrs......

Hops

[Bones]

Thought I'd give y'all an update.  I went in to the dentist for the root canal and part way through the procedure, the dentist and I discovered a pocket of infection that the antibiotic didn't get.  As a result, when the dentist inserted the probe, my tooth went "ZING!"  It felt like an electrical impulse.  The dentist put additional medication inside the tooth and rescheduled the root canal, part two, for next Thursday.  Oh joy.

Bones

[gratitude28]

Oh, Bones. How awful. I am so glad you are getting it taken care of. Did it hurt terribly? I bet it felt great to get out of the office and back home!!! Did they give you more medicine?
Take care of yourself and take it easy, bones...
Love, Beth

[Gaining Strength]

Oh boy Bones.  That is so painful.  I am sorry.  As if you need any more twists and turns.  Hang in there.  I'm pulling for you.
your friend - Gaining Strength

[Bones]

Oh, Bones. How awful. I am so glad you are getting it taken care of. Did it hurt terribly? I bet it felt great to get out of the office and back home!!! Did they give you more medicine?
Take care of yourself and take it easy, bones...
Love, Beth

Thanks, Beth.

I've had better days.  The medication the dentist gave is inside the tooth this time.  I'm hoping it does the trick this time.

Bones

[Bones]

Oh boy Bones.  That is so painful.  I am sorry.  As if you need any more twists and turns.  Hang in there.  I'm pulling for you.
your friend - Gaining Strength

Thanks, GS.

Bones

[Gaining Strength]

Dear sweet bones - you are a hero to me because you have not given up.  Out in real world "not giving up" is not in itself heroic but in N world it is.  Giving up calls us every day but you have resisted against new and emerging odds.  Good for you, you brave soul.  don't give up.  That's what me as a community must do together and for each other - never give up.  Good for you Bones - a hero.

your friend - gaining Strength

[Bones]

Dear sweet bones - you are a hero to me because you have not given up.  Out in real world "not giving up" is not in itself heroic but in N world it is.  Giving up calls us every day but you have resisted against new and emerging odds.  Good for you, you brave soul.  don't give up.  That's what me as a community must do together and for each other - never give up.  Good for you Bones - a hero.

your friend - gaining Strength

Thanks, GS.

Today, I accepted the invitation to attend a party and was able to do a little networking, with people in my field, while I was there.  Through that I found a possible lead to a job announcement and sent out another resume'.  All I can do, for now, is watch, wait, search for potential opportunities and apply again.  I still hear the old "tapes" of my Nmother's voice screaming vile names at me and I'm starting to feel like telling her to "F off".

Bones

[Hope]

Hey Bones,

  That's very cool about the networking and potential leads on jobs! I have a hunch we'll be saying "Congrats" to you regularly from this point on     I hope the party was enjoyable, too.

Hope

[Bones]

Hey Bones,

  That's very cool about the networking and potential leads on jobs! I have a hunch we'll be saying "Congrats" to you regularly from this point on     I hope the party was enjoyable, too.

Hope

Thanks, Hope.

I even indulged myself in the moonbounce even though I'm a retiree.

Bones

[Hope]

LOL...  the moonbounce??  I'm thinking that may be a dance? Like a hepped up version of M Jackson's moonwalk?

Ahhh... the simple pleasures.  And you're only a temporary retiree, so bounce away 

Hope

[Gaining Strength]

Bones

I still hear the old "tapes" of my Nmother's voice screaming vile names at me and I'm starting to feel like telling her to "F off".

When you first hear the tape starting push the stop button, take the tape out, hand it back to your mother and tell her, "Here's your tape. It got stuck in my machine by mistake.  It's not mine, it's yours."  Then take out a new tape. Put it in your machine.  Press play and listen to "Things are new.  I believe in ME.  I have may strength such as 1......., 2........, 3......., etc., etc.,  Those weaknesses my mother talked about aren't mine at all after all.  They are hers.  She just projected them onto me and for the longest time I believed her.  Not any more."   Go ahead and tell her to F off if it helps.  After a while you may try letting her go because her pitiful actions are not worth your anger.

So glad for you.  Look back over this thread.  See how quickly you have come from the darkest night into a little sunlight.  See how many people have been on this journey with you - how many people care and how many people have been supporting you and encouraging you.  Isn't that something?  It's just amazing to me.  And what remarkable force brought you here just when you needed it?  That same force is lifting you up because you have opened your heart to it.  That's truly inspiring me to keep believing.  Thanks for being such a great inspitation Bones - your friend - Gaining Strength

[Bones]

LOL...  the moonbounce??  I'm thinking that may be a dance? Like a hepped up version of M Jackson's moonwalk?

Ahhh... the simple pleasures.  And you're only a temporary retiree, so bounce away 

Hope

Thanks, Hope.

The moonbounce is like a trampoline inside an inflatable house.  A lot of fun.

Bones

[Bones]

Bones

I still hear the old "tapes" of my Nmother's voice screaming vile names at me and I'm starting to feel like telling her to "F off".

When you first hear the tape starting push the stop button, take the tape out, hand it back to your mother and tell her, "Here's your tape. It got stuck in my machine by mistake.  It's not mine, it's yours."  Then take out a new tape. Put it in your machine.  Press play and listen to "Things are new.  I believe in ME.  I have may strength such as 1......., 2........, 3......., etc., etc.,  Those weaknesses my mother talked about aren't mine at all after all.  They are hers.  She just projected them onto me and for the longest time I believed her.  Not any more."   Go ahead and tell her to F off if it helps.  After a while you may try letting her go because her pitiful actions are not worth your anger.

So glad for you.  Look back over this thread.  See how quickly you have come from the darkest night into a little sunlight.  See how many people have been on this journey with you - how many people care and how many people have been supporting you and encouraging you.  Isn't that something?  It's just amazing to me.  And what remarkable force brought you here just when you needed it?  That same force is lifting you up because you have opened your heart to it.  That's truly inspiring me to keep believing.  Thanks for being such a great inspitation Bones - your friend - Gaining Strength

Thanks, GS.

I believe that my Higher Power is in charge and taking care of everything.  I went to church today with a friend and then encountered people during the day who felt the need to pray with us.  That helped a lot.

Bones

[Gaining Strength]

Bones -
Sounds like your Higher Power is working miracles.  I am glad for you.  hang in there - So glad to have seen you make some good progress.

your friend - gaining Strength