Just Need Support

[WRITE]

deadlines are awful for me even though I have the skill

read that back to yourself then break it down.

Learning to manage deadlines is a skill too.

I cannot tell you how afraid I was that I would not be able to support myself or manage my life, but it really has been as easy- and as hard- as taking one thing at a time and learning how to do it, and not being held back.

You have helped me reframe so much of my life, and that is the biggest skill of all: adaptation.

It's easier for me because I do believe in my heart G_d will take care of me, but even that- I've had to adapt what that means. G_d is the river, but I am the one driving the boat! It doesn't mean I won't have to work for it or have bad days or self-doubt. It just means that everything will work out, and I will have what I need. Nothing more either- I've had to realise many things I thought I needed I can do without.

You told me to get loads of books lately and they have been invaluable, now you read Marsha Sinetar 'Do What You Love and the Money WIll Follow'. It changed my life.

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[Hopalong]

thank you so much, Write.
This is beyond kind.
Means a lot to me, and I will definitely get the book you suggest.

I will follow my bliss as soon as I rustle up some, I promise.

 
Hops

[Gaining Strength]

I will follow my bliss as soon as I rustle up some, I promise.

LOL Hops - rustle up enough for me too - do you mind?  - Gaining Strength

[WRITE]

One of my friends is into Joseph Campbell.

He says

We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

[Gaining Strength]

I love that WRITE - that is very nice.  So good to hear - yet again to let go and let God.  Thank you.  GS

[WRITE]

I have so much reading to do I haven't read as much as I'd like of Joseph Campbell, but my friend says his philosophy fits me perfectly and it'll be like a religion to me!

Goodnight!

[teartracks]

Hops,

We're all gathered around you cooing over you, encouraging you, giving you best wishes,  and thanking you for being in our lives.  Now close your eyes and feel the love!  (((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hops)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))

tt

[moonlight52]

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Sending sweet dreams to you

Love always


moonlight

Thank you for being you wonderful you

[Healing&Hopeful]

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I guess everything happens for a reason.... just a lot of the time we don't know what that reason is. 

Take care

Love H&H xx

[ANewSheriff]

WRITE:

We must be willing to get rid of the life we've planned, so as to have the life that is waiting for us.

Daing!  That is SO GOOD!  This one is going up on my refrigerator.  Thanks, WRITE.

ANS

[Hopalong]

Much better tonight folks...big thanks to all of you!
I sweated and struggled plowed through the panic paralysis and managed to perform very well at work, despite the thin-ice.... I realize I'm finishing this job up with quality work as a matter of personal pride. My boss could not complain today because I've produced. The other boss walked up and offered to include me in the lunch order (after nearly 2 years it was nice to simply say, thank you anyway, I brought a salad.... ) Also, it became evident to the researchers at a meeting that I'm the one who has been editing one of our projects into excellent shape from very raw copy all along...(Nboss, who can't write his way out of a shoe, was not-subtly trying to take credit for my work all along) and that helped my wittle bitty egowww. Oddly, he was nicer to me the rest of the day.

S&S, wow. Have you always lived there? I'd love to hear more about life in Mexico. I've never been there.... (Not that I'm having sell my mother, I mean everything else, and run away, fantasies or anything....) 

I'm doing fine and anticipate a healthier weekend.

I send love and hopes for allayall that you have one too, each in every step that matters to you.

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Hops

[Gaining Strength]

I sweated and struggled plowed through the panic paralysis and managed to perform very well at work, despite the thin-ice....

Hops - unbelievable!!!!!  I am standing on table tops hooping and hollering.  What a fabulous success!!!!  You did it, You can do it. Plowed through the panic paralysis AND performed very well. Please mark this in some way so you can call this up when you need courage.  YOU DID IT. and performed VERY WELL!!!!!!!


I'm so proud of you.  And I'm going to take it in as mine so that when I am fighting my paralysis I will remember that you beat it and so can I.  Thank you my dear friend Hops!!!

(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((Hops)))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))  I am so, so proud of you.  Aren't you?

your friend in overcoming paralysis - Gaining Strength

[Hopalong]

Woo-Hoo back to you, my friend!
You hadda clear off the tabletop to stand on it! 

THANK you for that burst of cheer and praise.
Means a lot coming from another who GETS the extreme procrastination/paralytic panic.

Hugs back!
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PS--I've noticed the more I daydream and space out and introspect the less I perform. I absolutely will never cut out daydreaming, it's part of being a writer...but I'm getting a clue I need to balance itmore.

[Certain Hope]

Hi Hops,

   Delinquent in my support, but present and accounted for at long last.
 
   As you know, some time ago, I chose to take offense toward you and let myself get caught up in a mode of anger and judgmentalism. That's an ancient habit which I really want to break. I'm sorry that you were the recipient of my childish snit.
 I've harbored thoughts in my heart and said things about you that've been far from kind and gentle and I was wrong. I'm sorry for that, as well. It's taken me a couple of close encounters with some serious fear to recognize my need to speak up directly, in truth, and then let it go, not carrying a grudge for even a moment.

   Yesterday, I was prepared to leave this board rather than grow through my fear and avoidance, not to mention my extreme irritation with some personalities. Oh, well... I did leave, actually, but then I talked it over with my husband and he said that I should remake my account and not hide. Just like that. He said, don't be afraid... nobody is going to come jumping through your screen... so simply. I don't know why it seemed so complicated and difficult and threatening to me, but I'm surely tired of feeling that way.
So here I am, a bit wiser and sincerely sorry for having put you down. I wish that I had answered you directly when you asked whether I was avoiding you. Well, actually, I was ignoring you, and then I felt bullied when you made a point of asking directly what was up. How dumb of me. I'm amazed at my own ignorance. When I tried to explain that to my husband how that felt, and he asked me "why afraid??"... I couldn't even answer. Just something about being put on the spot. He says, "where's your faith?"  Sometimes he is quite annoying, too 

   Anyhow, I wanted to make my "first" post to you because this is some old business that has pricked my heart on many occasions, and it was long past due to try to make it right. I've tried to keep you in prayers, but I just couldn't seem to do it without clearing this up first. Now I know that I can. Thanks for listening.

Hope

[Gaining Strength]

My dear friend Hope - I am not "in the know" about your post but I want to say - I am so very glad that you are back.  You are so important to me.  You ahve given me so much HOPE.  In my first days I asked about your name and I loved that answer you gave and each time I see you I think of that marvelous verse.

Certain Hope is such a strong, empowering moniker.  It suits you.  What strength you demonstrate in this post.  My love and prayers are with you.  I'm so glad you did not go for long - your friend - Gaining Strength