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seasons

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feelings of not being needed anymore
« on: October 11, 2006, 10:22:20 AM »
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Re: feelings of not being needed anymore
« Reply #1 on: October 11, 2006, 12:03:40 PM »
Hi Seasons,

I am having similar feelings myself these days.  Different source but similar in that I have stepped through that doorway into the next room where there are no Ns and I'm left with my "real life".  And it feels so unfamiliar.  And lonely in many, many respects.  But I believe I have never given my real life a chance before and that it is truly that it is unfamiliar, not comfortable, it is too new yet.  I'm learning how to focus on the moment and identify my emotions better and not be afraid of them or of the newness.  Letting go of the Hallmark imagery.  I will not tell you, oh think of other things, remember the hallmark families have problems too, etc.  I am not going to recommend anything that amounts to simply distracting yourself through this phase.  Instead, I'm recommending that you "study" it.  Really focus on the moments, the feelings, the new routines.  Teach yourself slowly to treasure and value what you are learning and discovering now that the Ns are pretty much gone.  Going back to the old way won't fit any more, anyway.  You could try it, but I bet you will abandon it quickly.  You are entering a new world now, the real world.  It will feel strange for awhile.  It is not part of your habit yet.  Not customary.  But it will be eventually.  For me, I've been in this stage a few weeks now and it is starting to feel okay sometimes.  So, I believe it will continue to improve.  So, I will continue to absorb and learn.  Someday this will be normal and it will be obvious just how abnormal the other life was.

Hope this helps.

Pennyplant
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Re: feelings of not being needed anymore
« Reply #2 on: October 11, 2006, 01:39:42 PM »
it has been since June since I've posted

I guess being used does give you something.

Like an outsider to a game I'm not good at.

not to beg for their attention yet the results are a lonely heart.


you sound isolated Seasons.

It is so hard to be lonely I know, but there are loads of people who will WANT to spend time with you, inclusing me and people here, seek them out and don't rely for support on people who can't or won't give it.

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Re: feelings of not being needed anymore
« Reply #3 on: October 11, 2006, 04:04:34 PM »
Hi Seasons,
I so share and sympathize with your feelings about the holiday seasons...
all the cars on blocks, all the jollity, all the people beaming with happiness and satisfaction over their present-and-accounted-for NUKULAR families. It is very hard not to envy, not to be very sad.

(My only child does not "do" Christmas, so I listen to my friends' excitement for months...I miss her and it's a particularly lonely feeling when you have family members and it still doesn't happen.)

I have vowed that once Nish Mom passes away, I will take a cruise at Christmas time.

Or a looooooooong drive, whatever it takes to get away from it all!

I think I will become an honorary Jew during December. Think they'd have me?

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Re: feelings of not being needed anymore
« Reply #4 on: October 12, 2006, 07:59:56 PM »
Hi Seasons...
It just popped into my head that almost a year ago we were talking about dreading holidays here.
I forgot my own advice then to someone, which is to plan holidays around helping cheer or take care of people lonelier than we are.

Sign up now to be a hospital volunteer, taking treats to the parents at their sick children's besides or helping throw a holiday party on a ward...or a nursing home, or an animal shelter, etc., etc.

There are all sorts of good and lonely people who appear to do service around holiday times. My church participates in a community church thing called PACEM...where we take turns housing homeless men and women for a week each. Dinner and a warm dry cot to sleep in...all takes coordinating.

I think if you anticipate that the holidays are rough, and PLAN to be busy doing things...then you'll probably have a wonderful season!

When Mom is no longer with me, that's what I plan to do.

love,
Hops
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