I think there's something about attending a good church which adds so much to life, I'm glad you found one.
My religious views just don't quite fit with traditional Christian churches yet, though I think they will in time as religion becomes more inter-faith and more G_d- centred.
I don't worship Jesus, I follow Jesus, and there is a significant difference in how the creeds and prayers fit for me; I also don't like anything anti-scientific or trying to explain the things which are mystery to us, and I absolutely hate the discussion of money from the pulpit or anything hateful said in Jesus' name.
But the Methodist Church I am attending is so loving; I don't accept the Apostles Creed and I've never been fond of repetition of prayers, in fact I prefer to pray silently rather than out loud, so I just take a back seat when these things are going on, or stuff like communion which I also don't take.
Some people might wonder why I go, but when I went to the Unitarian CHurches around Houston I found many people were irritated by references to G_d or Jesus, and I found myself longing to be in a Christian place.
But G_d is everywhere, I pray before I go into work, when I am driving, in bed; prayer is really important to me, I can't explain it, it's such a powerful force, it's helped me live with bipolar and keep everything together.
I like to go to different faith settings and try to understand that everyone's understanding, experiences and take even on the same religion is going to be different.
But if I thought people were upset or offended by my presence like with the UUs I would limit my involvement- my faith is really strong and I don't ever want to damage anyone else.
I've had a strong strong feeling lately that I need to be kinder, to love more, to stop worrying about myself, to hand my life over not to others but to G_d....for all the things that have happened to me here I am still alive and well and growing. I felt strongly G_d is telling me 'all will be well'.
In church I started to say the Apostle's Creed one day, and the sun came out and lit up all the stained glass, and I felt like I should not say it but pray silently instead, so I did.
Better go, here's my son home!
Take care,
~W
