Dear ((((((((((((((((CB)))))))))))))):
So sorry to hear of this great loss of your loving uncle. He sounds like a wonderful person who is certainly your relative.....family member. And to find yourself unable to attend with the family is another loss......a very upsetting and frustrating one at that, and I'm sorry you are having to go through it. No wonder your uncle was proud of you! You sacrifice for your child, which is what good parents do, regardless of how badly they want something for themselves. You are such a good mother, CB for doing that.....putting your child first.
And maybe it will end up you being a bigger help than you could be now.....that you visit later, when you are able. Maybe, your aunt will really need a visit then and maybe you will help her more then than you could now (with the wonderful cushion of family and friends you've described already in place right now).
Please hug yourself too, because that cushion would also help you, if you were able to attend. To not be able to share your grief with those who also feel it and all, is another loss for you, a sacrifice. God bless you CB and keep you safe. Good for you for coming here for support! Keep doing that if it helps.
Sela