hi Hopalong 
Leah again&
GS againDissociation is a psychological state or condition in which certain thoughts, emotions, sensations, or memories are separated from the rest of the psyche. For this reason, it is sometimes referred to as "splitting."
(That in itself can make a degree of sense, Izzy)However, when taken further, it leads to DID (formerly MPD) and fugue states, and amnesia
---not that I wouldn't mind some anmesia! I have never been that far gone, but I've found nothing that suggests a ˝ way stopping off point.
In Three Faces of Eve, her trauma was a forgotten episode about her dead grandmother--having been forced to kiss the dead body? I remember my grandparents dying---- although with no emotion.
In Sybil, I forget the trauma that made her split, I forget, as well, if these were based in true fact.
Another trauma is sexual abuse, and I have no memory of my father doing anything to me, but sexual abuse can lead to urinary dysfunction and I wet the bed until age 12.
(I do have an incident though that always baffled me. I was 4, and my mother had gone crazy, --to the hospital to have my brother. I slept in the same room as my father. He had a double bed and, in the opposite corner, I had a cot. I had a nightmare about a big hairy brown bear that was after me, I was trying to get away when one of his claws scratched my back, Then I was awake and dad was putting me back in the cot, said I fell out of bed, and it felt as though I had been on the floor. I had a scratch on my back when I woke up the next morning.) Why would I remember that?
EDIT: OMG It just came to me that I "see' dad putting me in bed as though I were standing in the bedroom doorway! ALWAYS HAVE!I found a long article on children's dissociation--very technical-- re father's dissociation and mother's dissociation and the effect on children. i won't go into detail as I can barely understand it, and these tests were on boys, not girls. AS well the parents tendency to dissociate was not linked to MPD.
A positive trend emerged between children's dissociation and children's ratings of parental inconsistent discipline.parental dissociation, child dissociation, and parenting qualities are interrelatedRetrospective studies have consistently found a link between severe childhood punishment and later dissociation it is likely that these general parenting practices ( parental inconsistency and rejection) serve as stressors for children who then cope using the psychological and behavioral responses that are most natural for them. For some children, stress automatically elicits anger and aggression. For others, stress is dealt with more readily through dissociative processes. A highly stressful environment, then, may provoke repeated and increasingly facile dissociative responses in the predisposed child.Only 4/27 are even close to me in
how I perceive myself.9. I forget right away what people say to me.
10. I find myself concealing my activities from others.
19. I wish I didn't watch my every move.
20. Even when I have missed several meals I find that I am not hungry.
27. I see myself differently than other people see me.
Leah, I will gladly help you, throught PMs if you want to know how to do the images.
GS,I cannot remember expressing emotion as a child--------------except once I shoved a broomstrick down my N sister's throat. Mom stopped me from killing her, <tee hee> The judge would have let me off! I was 3-4
As far a Joe, he only overreacted when he was drunk. I remember how happy he was when I told him, for the first, that I loved him.
I am getting older now and some things escape me.
love to all
Izzy
