Teartracks Week From Hell

[isittoolate]

TT

how are you now?

Iz

[teartracks]

Hi Iz,

The virus really zapped me.  I'm up and walking, but have no energy to do tasks.  Feeling a tiny bit better each day.  Thank you for asking.  As I understand it, recovering from Shingles can take up to a month.  My entire immune system is compromised from stress and I'm not a spring chicken anymore.   I don't know much about burn wounds and have no idea how long it will take for it to heal.   I'm not accident prone.  It was just a freaky accident.  Our Microwave is on a cramped pantry shelf.  When I took the cup of hot water out, I accidentally hit the door facing to the pantry.  It bounced right back on me and scalded my left b**b.   

tt

[lighter]

When my grandmother had shingles the Doctor said she could have taken drugs to shorten duration and symptoms.  She wouldn't go see him in time though and she had an awful experience.  I hope you've seen your doctor and taken meds if they'll help you. 

[camper]

Praying for you tt!

[CB123]

TT,

I am so sorry that you are having to wrestle with all these things at once.  It does seem as though when these things happen they happen in bunches!    

Many hugs to you and hopes for a restful weekend. 

Love
CB

[Ami]

DearTT,
    It is hard to keep up your spirits when you don't feel well. I am so sorry that you are going through this, If you are a natural health believer, PM me and I could  give you some natural health ideas.
 I am praying for you and do feel in my heart that all  willturn out well,I really do . It reminds me of the saying"In the meantime,it's a mean time".                            Love and Hugs Ami

[teartracks]

lighter, camper, CB and Ami,

Thank you for all your prayers and good wishes.

lighter, as soon as I realized I had Shingles, I went online and saw that early treatment could help a lot.   Based on what I read, I thought I'd crossed the time threshold for treatment to be effective.  I hope there is not a next time, but if there is, hopefully I'll recognize the symptoms.  Looking back, I had symptoms at least two weeks before the blisters popped up.

This makes me want to counsel each one here who has made a decision to remain in 'relationship'  with an N, you must be proactive in taking care of yourself.   Living with a sick or well N  equals mega stress.  I haven't been proactive in taking care of myself, even though I have been warned that I should.  I've told the story here before that I grew up on a dirt farm.  We had a mule, Maude.  Maude the faithful!  For sufficient ears of corn, a little hay and an acre to graze,  she was always there available to have  'designer' gear thrown over her frame.  N's treat you like a beast of burden, often as chattel.   They will never reciprocate in a way that restores what they take. 

Y'all take care of yourselves!

OK.  Lecture finished!

tt

[Ami]

wOW   TT,
   I needed to be reminded of that with my H   . One of the worst things about not feeling well is being discouraged. When I had the flu for 3 weeks, I thought that I would never feel well,again. I needed someone to tell me- "You will. It will pass even though it does not feel that way now."
  I am praying for you and I see you well in my 'Minds Eye". . It might just take some time.
                                                                                                     Love and Big Hugs  Ami

[Hopalong]

I want a mule to love. I've been daydreaming about puppies a lot. Arrgh.

Thanks for the Maude story, TT...

I am so sorry about shingles. If it's any comfort, my Dad had them when he was far older than you, and he did recover fully with no lingering symptoms or after-neuropathy. I do hope that's true for you too, and I don't think 2 weeks is too late for medical help to have an impact. You have seen a doctor???

GOOD care to you, and thank you for the reminder about self-care. I've really let it slip.

love
Hops

[isittoolate]

((((TT))))))))))))

again.

We had a horse called Maude.

Also King, M____, Mack and Pearl  ( I thought I was named for that second horse!)

All the cows had names. I remember Sylvia was a rebel.

Getting down to smaller animals, I/we had to help Dad kill them

(--sledgehammer to the head of a calf, slit the throat of a pig, drown newborn kittens, shoot the grown barn cats that caught that cat disease____?)


yukkkk

(Pearl went blind but she could still "Gee" and "Haw")

Izzy

[teartracks]

Iz,

Y'all had three horses and more than one cow!  You were rich!!!  We only had one of each. 

Hops,

Funny you mentioned that you want a Mule to love.  Here's a recent Maude story.  When I was sixteen and graduating HS, my parents sold the farm and moved us to the city  (I always say that I've been warped ever since). That meant I had to change schools in my senior year, but that never registered as important with them.  When I showed signs of a 'nervous breakdown', they sent me back to my grandparents, who owned the adjoining farm to finish the few remaining weeks.  Well, the other day while having lunch at home with mom, I got to thinking about Maude and how I'd not said goodbye to her (she was sold with the farm).  I was overcome with grief.  I almost burst into tears, but again having been taught so well to control my emotions, I only allowed myself to tear up.  It all makes me understand how important it is to grieve our *losses.  Also, how important it is for things to be done in decency and order.  It would have been orderly and decent for our parents to explain to us kids about selling the farm, leaving the familiar things, the animals, how things would be different, very different.  I'm not blaming them.  It's just an observation and a lesson and a tool to help me do life better from here out.

Maude.  I know she is in Mule heaven.  You would have loved her!

tt

Add in:  *It's equally important to celebrate our gains.  I think we do that in part by being grateful.

[lighter]

The story about Maud the Mule being a beast of burden, for a few ears of corn and the right to graze, really is about how N's treat people in their lives. 

[teartracks]

Ami,

Glad the reminder to take care of yourself registered.  It's so true.  Those of us who are born to an N or who have for whatever reason succomed to an N can be extremely vulnerable, physically, emotionally and spiritually.  It is very unusual for us not to be under attack in one or all of those categories.  So we must be mindful of our body, our mind and our spirit.  We must nurture them individually and corporately.  I'm wishing you the very best.

tt

[teartracks]

To Everyone,

I'm glad y'all liked the little tribute to Maude.  She deserved it and more.  She was so faithful.  Unlike Iz's horses, Maude never had a mule playmate, she must have been lonely sometimes.   

tt

[lighter]

It makes me very sad to picture myself as Maude, lol.  I can remember my sister saying she'd meet me somewhere in highschool then never showing up.  She actually did this all through our lives, and would still if I allowed it.

 I'd still be standing there all by myself after whatever event was over and I'd see her later, surrounded by admirerers and having fun.  She never even gave a thought about me faithfully waiting alone, I'd have never left just in case she was looking for me, ya know?  I was worried something happened to her or that she was lost, lol. 

It seems like she causes confusion on purpose, and not just for me.  For everyone involved in her life really.  I think I was just the one most affected.

Anyway, I identify with your story.