Dear TT,
Thanks for all the sweet things" that you say on the posts,BTW. I "live"in Lands End black , long silk underwear that people use for skiing.I go around the house in it and then sleep in it.
I think that I can speak to this subject of dysfunction b/c I am going through it right now,
I am shedding layers of distortions. Peck says that emotional problems start with a "lie" . We accept a lie or a distortion of reality in to our "subconscious" or conscious.. . For me, I accepted ,at age 14, that my NPD mother was 'normal" and I was seeing it wrong. My F lied to me and I "took it in From then on, I laid a foundation for more and more lies.. Since I did not trust myself, I was "open" to believe other peoples lies. I had given away my internal "compass" or 'knower".So, after many years and accumulating many,many distortions, I became 'mentally ill"or in a" deep hole."
I ,personally, could not get myself out. Nothing worked such as therapy,support groups, reading, etc. I simply was "hanging on to my mental health by a thread b/c i did not trust anyone else to help me with it. I have been really "betrayed by therapists. It was either that they valued my H over me b/c he had the finances or that ,in individual therapy, they did not want to let me go b/c I could pay the bill. Either way, the patient never knows the character or motivation of the person behind the desk. This is my opinion, only. I know that others have had different results.
However, I started to heal when I "took" the scripture,"You shall know the truth and the truth shall make you free." Then , God started showing me that I did not need to be my M's garbage pail.
My point is that we got "sick" from lies. We will heal to the degree that we can face those lies.
These last 5 days, I have felt horrible- physically and emotionally. Today, it seems better .Right now, no one is home and I needed that. My body was dizzy and wobbly. It was scary. Also, my body 'sensations" were weird. For example, I felt really "compressed and short like all my energy from my head was going to my stomach. I was afraid of this until I remembered acupuncture. During treatments, your energy would move around in really strange ways as it re adjusted itself. .
I realized that when I faced these deep lies, my body energy changed.
All of a sudden, I started getting hot flashes,too. I never had then before, I don;t know if these emotional changes brought them on.
I saw many lies about my life. I think that I was 'holding' these lies in my body. When I faced the lies, my body "released" these energies.
I will say that it would be hard to go through this with out support.I even thought that I should go to the emergency room You, on the board, held me up. Maria helped ,too. She has been betrayed by her family as we have so she understands.
I think that "dysfunction happens for a simple reason-- lies. So, it should heal when we face and uncover the lies.
MY next"journey "is in to the scripture,"Perfect Love Casts out Fear." I have a lot of fear. Love Amii