(((Lupita))))
You are so special in my heart. Thanks for comforting me.
I'm Ok, but I'm in a very offensive position.... driven there by N.
I have some legal clarity and I'm feeling good about it, as good as one can feel in a divorce with children involved.
The up side is...... I won't allow myself (read that as assist) N to push me around like he's been doing, unchecked.
The down side is...... I'm beyond the point of posting about anything to do with staying with N's.
::Shaking head:: Just can't stomach it.
I suppose this is a board announcement that I won't be posting in that arena any more and if I snap a bit, it's not about anyone here.... it's about me and the position I'm in now.
I feel like I'm coming off a high altitude climb up a mountain road...... and peeking over the top, finally.
I didn't know exactly what I'd see.....
but it was just more road, not a sheer drop with lions driving me over the edge! ::Whew!::
The lion's still back there but I've begun rolling down the hill, so much better than remaining static.
My wheels are a bit squeeky and slow...... lopsided even in this imperfect legal system but......
At least I'm moving
and I realize I'm in a war chariot,
and I'm ready to do battle.
My stomach thrills just a little bit at the unfamiliar movement..... like being on a horse for the first time, lol. I can hear the clop clop of horses hooves, smell the leather harnesses and enjoy the unfamiliar sound of all this offensive gear beginning to roll.
(you should see my attorney's eyesy light up, like a little kid at Christmas, as he contemplates all the evidence displayed before him, against N) Smacking his lips and picturing the Judge's/Juror's reaction to this documented horror show, that's been my life. ::Sigh:: Something to be said for good documentation, Ladies. ::nod::
It's exhiliarating and sad (for my children's sake) but I'm focused like I've never been focused in my life.
A growing experience beyond all the rest, and I've had some intense growth experiences in the past 10 years.
Intense: /
HERE I GO, lol!
I've never committed myself to fighting back before. Not like this. I've always gone belly up and allowed it before breaking contact and moving on.
I can't break contact this time.
Believe me, I wish I could: /
Thanks to everybody who's posted support. I'm just getting back to the board and catching up: )
Your attention is appreciated so much.
Thanks again (((Lupita)))