Dear Lighter,
It is exactly all of N's tail-chasing (referring to his own tail 
) which is going to show the court his real intent.
All of this maddening behavior of his is going to trickle down to the level of the bench to give the judge an eye-opener... and he/she will not be so appreciative of the aNtics.
Never was it more true than in the case of N... give him enough rope and he WILL hang himself.
Praying here that God will be your strength and your shield.
Love,
Hope
N-tics.
aNtics.
Heh.
I like that.
Let's just hope this Judge continues to find domestic abuse unnacetable.
N has painted himself into a corner and has to face the consequences for manufacturing evidence, lying, cheating, harming me physically then listen to his taped confessions about it all. He'll have felony charges soon. It's unchartered territory for me. I'm not sure how to feel abou it.
He'll be playing Defense, instead of Offense.
I was supposed to crumple and fold long before this happened to him.
TO him. ::sigh::
He's lit himself on fire and I couldn't put him out no matter how many times my
hope had me try.
He wouldn't allow it.
Now it's my turn with the Lighter.
(figurative, of course)
And I only use it to shine light on his actions, not to hurt him, though it surely will be viewed that way by some.
His family.
Him.
What about the Judge and N's attorney?
Hard to say, really.
To protect me and my children, I shine the light.
I ask for the logical consequences.
I do it in self defense only.
That leaves me feeling pretty blurry, actually.
Is it being in the orbit of people who's realities are distorted through N's filters?
Would I do the same for my children?
Maybe I'm a bit bleary over the release of pressure?
::Pssshhhhhhhhhh::
Like rising up off the ocean floor and finding myself on the surface?
It's certainly disturbing to know his family would harm the girls in order to protect him.
That they would harm me, is one thing, but our children?
::sigh::
Now I
feel Lighter.
I will not make the mistake of gloating, though I feel that N has taken plenty of rope and hung himself.
In more ways than one.
Sure, some of his threats are real.
But not all of them.
Time to stop fearing and be mindful of every decision I make.
As long as this Judge continues to find domestic abuse unacceptable, I think our children and I have a chance of being protected in the court, to the extent the court can help.
It's something.
