« previous next »
Pages: [1]

Author Topic: Here goes  (Read 2382 times)

Pauoa

  • Newbie
  • *
  • Posts: 2
Here goes
« on: August 07, 2007, 02:17:24 PM »
Well here goes, I joined this board as a way to start telling my feelings or finally admitting my feelings.

I am depressed and I have been for a long long time.  I am unable to discuss this with any of my friends.  The words float up and I get near to telling my friends I'm depressed and sad and I feel like I'm going to cry and I just clamp down.  I dont know why or how I got to a place that is so isolating and fearful.  I dont know why I am unable to talk about this with others.  I feel like I have a deep wound inside me and if I tap into it - it will produce a deep moan with in my self that I will be unable to stop. 

I'm hoping that this world will be my first step in creating a story for me, a way to learn how to talk and describe my depression. 

Take care - Pauoa
Logged

gratitude28

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2582
Re: Here goes
« Reply #1 on: August 07, 2007, 02:20:11 PM »
Welcome Pauoa,
Do you want to tell us more about your depression and its roots so we can help you? It is hard to help if we don't know why you are hurting. All of us here have heard and experienced awful things, so you can't shock or scare us.
(((((((((((((((((((((((((Pauoa))))))))))))))))))))
Love, Beth
Logged
"There is a theory which states that if ever anyone discovers exactly what the Universe is for and why it is here, it will instantly disappear and be replaced by something even more bizarre and inexplicable." Douglas Adams

Ami

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 7820
Re: Here goes
« Reply #2 on: August 07, 2007, 02:32:12 PM »
Dear Friend,
   Welcome, I echo Beth's sentiment .Please talk to us in more detail so we can share our own lives and feelings in a way that will, hopefully, help you . I am glad that you reached out. It is the first step in healing                                 Love  Ami
Logged
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung

spyralle

  • Guest
Re: Here goes
« Reply #3 on: August 07, 2007, 02:50:49 PM »
Hi Pauoa,

Welcome hon..
Sometimes the slide into that place is so subtle that you don't even feel yourself slipping until it is too late.I have been there is that darkness and I know that fear and pain.  Use this place first as a lamp to help you light the darkness and to allow you to see a little more, and then as your ladder..  You will find many hands here stretched out to you waiting to help you out..

Keep posting sweetie we're listening

Spyralle
Logged

JanetLG

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 681
  • 'I am NOT 'difficult'!
Re: Here goes
« Reply #4 on: August 07, 2007, 03:19:00 PM »
Dear Pauoa,

Welcome to this board. You can start talking when you're ready, not even starting at 'the beginning' if you need to...we are used the feeling of being a bit overwhelmed at first with all the thoughts that come up when you try to put it all into words. There are lots of people here willing to listen to you, and to offer help if you want that, or just empathise if that's what you need right now.

So many people here have been through hell, but this board is brilliant for helping people move forwrads.

Janet
Logged

debkor

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 1070
Re: Here goes
« Reply #5 on: August 07, 2007, 04:35:48 PM »
Pauoa,


Hiya!

Nice to meet you.  Just wanted to give you a wave. 


Love
Deb
Logged

finding peace

  • Sr. Member
  • ****
  • Posts: 489
Re: Here goes
« Reply #6 on: August 07, 2007, 05:34:33 PM »
Hi Pauoa,

I am sorry you have so much pain - I know the fear of being overwhelmed if you let even a little out.

When you are ready, I will listen.

Take care,
Peace

Logged
- Life is a journey not a destination

Hopalong

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 13619
Re: Here goes
« Reply #7 on: August 07, 2007, 07:09:05 PM »
Welcome, Pauoa,

How long have you felt this sad? What was happening in your life when it started?

I'm glad you found us. And have you found a therapist?

Nobody should sit with that much pain alone.

love
Hopalong
Logged
"That'll do, pig, that'll do."

isittoolate

  • Guest
Re: Here goes
« Reply #8 on: August 07, 2007, 08:24:51 PM »
Welcom Pauoa, 

I am sorry to hear about this weird depression of yours.

I know what you mean about trying to get ready to tell someone and then you just can't. I've been there.

I might be the oldest person on this Board, 68, and depression has been with me for a long, long time.

I am so much better now with medication.......Are you on medication? It really hekps, when the right one for you is found.

I think many people don't want to hear us whine about our sorry state in life, so we say nothing.

And I have found that once I knew why I was depressed and faced it with a therapist (and meds) I am SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO much better and I told my brother and sister on the weekend, the real truth of my problem. (They are 65 and 67, so I didn't expect they would beat me up or anything!)

Hang in and talking helps
Izzy

[attachment deleted by admin]
Logged

lighter

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 8633
Re: Here goes
« Reply #9 on: August 08, 2007, 12:14:17 AM »
Welcome P.

Talk about your feelings and see if things don't get clearer for you. 

Talking and writing always help me see things more clearly: )
Logged

teartracks

  • Guest
Re: Here goes
« Reply #10 on: August 08, 2007, 12:29:23 AM »


Hello Pauoa,

I'm willing to walk with you.

Glad to have you here.  Warm greetings. :)

tt
Logged

Overcomer

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 2666
Re: Here goes
« Reply #11 on: August 08, 2007, 06:53:38 AM »
I remember being depressed and my mom wanted me to snap out of it.  It is not something to snap out of.  My doc recommended 5 HTP which  is a supplement.  It could not hurt.  Depression seems to pass but it is awful and I feel for you!  Tell up about it.  Does it have to do with a narcissist Spouse or parent or boss?
Logged
Kelly

"The Best Way Out is Through........and try laughing at yourself"

NoMoreMindGames

  • Jr. Member
  • **
  • Posts: 79
Re: Here goes
« Reply #12 on: August 08, 2007, 01:49:38 PM »
hi there,

welcome....i'm new here too.  this is a good board.  i hope you find the solace, comfort, and wisdom you are seeking here.

nmmg
Logged

Gaining Strength

  • Hero Member
  • *****
  • Posts: 3992
Re: Here goes
« Reply #13 on: August 08, 2007, 09:48:30 PM »
I just read your 2nd post thanking those who responded to this - your first post.  Somehow I missed this one.  I do hope you will try to express your pain.  One of the wonderful things about the internet in general and this place in particular is that you have a wonderful shield of anonymity.  I hope it will give you freedom to share here.

I experienced very severe depression several years ago.  I finally got a prescription for anti-depressants.  Up until that time I avoided medications unless absolutely necessary.  I didn't take asperin nor anti-biotics (except when hospitalized for a cat bite).  But I am very, very thankful that I took those anti-depressants.  I took them for several years and would get off and then find myselff slipping into depression during the winter.  I have now been unmedicated and depression free for sometime. 

One thing that really helps is eating more protein, less carbohydrates and cut down on or eliminate alcohol.  another thing that really helps is aerobic exercise.  Then, to the extent that you can do it, surround yourself with uplifting music, pictures, stories.  Look for all that is right in the world.  It actually effects the brain positively.

Here's a fantastic visual story from YouTube that was on TV last night - The Battle at Kruger.  Despite the description that it is a battle between lions and other beasts over a baby water buffalo the outcome is profoundly touching.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LU8DDYz68kM

So glad you are here.  I pray you find what you are looking for and that you find relief soon. - Gaining Strength
Logged
Pages: [1]
« previous next »