Did Something Sneaky and Bad... Found a Truth I Shouldn't Know

[isittoolate]

Hiya Grat..................

I certainly understand the 'need to know' if you suspect something is going on! I understand the search for answers, going through someone else's papers, whatever.

When I was young, under ten, older than 5, and was told that I didn't belong, that I was adopted, I began a search. At least I think that; so it began. Maybe is was just a suspicion of my own, but at THAT AGE?

I WENT INTO MOM'S STORAGE ROOM, FULL OF BOXES AND I SEARCHED EVERY ONE, AND OVER AGAIN, AND OVER AGAIN, AND COULD NEVER FIND ANY PROOF THAT I BELONGED.

Well this is snooping but I didn't think so. I was being lied to and I needed some proof. We moved fgrom one farm to another when I was 8 and now we had an attic where all this stuff was kept. I was a loner, not belonging, and I spent my time again, going through everything in the attic. Then my grandmother sent some things for us to store, books etc. and I searched page by page. I knew there had to be proof somehwere.

Grandma died and part of what she left to the kids was one old painting apiece and money. My paointing was a lovely one in old gold with a little child. There was paper on the back and I ripped it to pieces looking for my proof and I was 17 now.

I spent 17 years searching for nothing, but it became a habit. However, what was left to search???  My daughter's father had no papers, but had a lovely men's jewelry case.........................well that took 5 minutes.

In 1998 I met the psychopath and in 6 months had moved 2000 miles away. There was something weird about him, and one day he was going away for the day, but hooked up his hard drive to my computer to help copy all my files friom a failing hard drive. I was just clicking around on stuff waiting for files to copy and I found myself on his hard drive and a 45 page document about his life.

I moved it over to my hard drive and never did anything with it, but read it. It was about his life up to March 31, 1998, one day before I met him.

Some of the things made me unserstand him better, but I also found most of it crude.

Yes. I am a snoop because I was told I didn't belong

Love Izzy

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[Hopalong]

Hi ((((((((Beth))))))))))))))

What a painful, nasty discovery. I'm really sorry.

I think part of what offends me is that she did this on your computer.
As though she dirtied your private space.
(I am sensitive to computer invasion since mine is like a mechanical journal, diary, box of letters...)

I am not sure what I would do.
Perhaps I would deal with her directly instead of through others.
Such as, forward her own emails back to her and say nothing more than:

"I prefer you not to use my computer again."

??

Hops

[changing]

Hello Gratitude-

As usual our Hoppy has gotten to the heart of the matter with her Shamanistic powers of seeing and understanding and soulful expressing (I think our darling Hops is ready now for us to share her and her beauty and charm with the world- perhaps a whirlwind dating marathon, lots of fun, no serious ties right away- we want to vet any potential suitors !)

Gratitude, your M is not only continuing her sad betrayal of your father, but the betrayal and exploitation of a fine and good daughter. By using your computer, she has made you an unwilling accomplice and put you into a potentially no-win situation, in that you could be party to hurting your father either way. But you don't have to take her sick alternatives as the only ones (tell dad or don't tell dad). You can think of something different that you are comfortable with, for example, tell her to knock her disgusting antics off and never use your computer again; tell her to level with your dad  or you will, or any number of things. She can no longer gain power over her family by virtue of her shocking lack of morals and caring.

By the way- did I sense a  question as to whether the golden sister is the product of NM's illicit assignations? It does seem to make a kind of sense. I think that you might identify somewhat with your long-suffering father- but you my dear will not stand for your computer, your home, or your heart to be sullied by this woman's sickness and obvious hostility any longer!

Sending Much Love and Support Your Way,

Changing

[teartracks]

Hi Beth,

Suppose your mom was working at a bank and was embezzling money and someone found out...they'd call in the auditors, right?

Sorry you have to endure this ugly insult.

tt

[dandylife]

Gratitude,
Not to worry - people who get themselves into messes like your mom tend to expose themselves eventually.

Don't muddy yourself with her dirt.

Dandylife