Just love ((((((((((( Lupita )))))))))))) that's all I have to give you.
Your openness is beautiful.
it is size of letter. Just plain letter paper
That's just the right size --- mine were the size of a letter also; on my memo board, fridge, cupboard - any suitable blank space
The most idsapointing is the expecatation that I had from working in a Chrsitian environment, the cut in salary, the less benefits, the exess of work, just because I could have more peace working with devoted Christians and it redulted to be the same ch*t as in public schools, just with less pay.
Firstly, I feel the disappointment, the desire in your heart to work with a Christian organization, and the dash of hope, when all is not as it seems.
But, remember, they are just people, with flaws and issues, that they may have yet to deal with --- most likely for what you have shared. Christians are not 'perfect'
Allow me to share one experience with you; some years ago now, I was in a position to offer a post to a Christian lady who was at the time unemployed, and struggling to get a job, due to her age (would like to think that attitudes have changed today!!).
All was well, the Christian lady, was thrilled to bits, answered prayer etc. The work was slightly different to her CV background in office related work, however, she was more than capable of adapting to this new role --- which she did, quickly, with renewed confidence, and enjoyed the work and interaction with everyone. BUT, then, she suddenly changed her attitude towards me, she resented my being younger than her, she resented my role in the company (though she was not qualified or experienced to do my role).
She gathered together with her two colleagues, two younger ladies, and formed an alliance, against me! Stirring up dissention against the company also (which was an absolutely wonderful small company to work for - family run and generous) .
Each week, she would sit and read through the Vacancies page, leaving her work to one side, and the two ladies, started to do the same!!! Nightmare.
My director, who was not a Christian, questioned her Christianity and integrity. My response was, that Christians are not perfect, she obviously issues to address and deal with, and that only by surrendering herself to God, as a Christian, and allowing Him to work in her life, can she hope to move forward with a heart of God, and integrity.
So tentatively, I had the job of speaking with the Christian lady, highlighting the unacceptable,and deliberate, newspaper vacancy reading during office time, in front of her younger colleagues, as being unethical and unwise etc., to which she begrudgingly acknowledged and ceased to do.
Believe me, this was no easy task. Mu tummy was churning; my legs were like jelly; my voice was all of a quiver.
Things now became difficult at work due to her behaviour and attitude towards me.
The two young ladies enjoyed every minute and stirred the waters!
Sometimes, for the first time ever, I dreaded going in to work.
But, that was as much as I could do, the rest was in God's hands --- with the choice belonging to the Christian lady, as to whether or not she wished to surrender to Him, with a desire to change.
All I could do was pray.
Was not in my power to change the Christian lady.
The Serenity Prayer on a small card was permanently stuck on my computer (as is presently, today, at home)
Sometime later on, one morning, she approached me, tearfully, asking forgiveness for her attitude and behaviour --- she had allowed God to work in her heart. Afterward, we were each able to give thanks to the Lord our Saviour.
Peace and harmony was restored!!!
But the process was hell !
During which, God did a work in me also.
Love, Leah
