Author Topic: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?  (Read 6106 times)

Ami

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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #45 on: December 10, 2007, 09:24:16 AM »
Dear Bean,
  Thank you for sharing about your b/f. Once again,you give me hope that we really CAN live a full life ,even though we had N parents.
  I think the fact that he rocked you while you were grieving your parents covers a "multitude of sins".I think that you do  ,too.
  It seems like you are on the same "wavelength", which is crucial. You like him and  feel passion for  him.
 I like that you and he try to work to "fit together'. I think that you have a "normal" relationship. I think that you have gotten away from N craziness ,to a large extent.
  I guess that when you faced  the truth about your FOO, you were free to truly face yourself and life.
  I really wish I could meet you in 3 D,Bean. I think that you are "neat" . Thanks for answering Bean.              Love   Ami

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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #46 on: December 10, 2007, 11:09:06 AM »
I am so sorry you are hurting that much. I know exactly what you mean about it being a powerful experience b/c it was the first time you really showed your "soft underbelly" to a male. Boy, does that resonate with me. I made the mistake of doing that with an N and, man, did that hurt when my core was not appreciated or treated well. You are too sweet, smart, generous to be mistreated. The person you fell in love with obviously was not capable of appreciating you. I thin us N-survivors have had our cores hollowed out, making us deeper and more appreciative - since you seem to like Gibran, that's one of his. We can contained more joy, more compassion, more empathy thatn those who have not been hollowed out. You're one of those with deepness and love in your core. He apparently is one of those who had no room inside himself to contain you.

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Ami

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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #47 on: December 10, 2007, 04:28:17 PM »
Thank you towrite,
  You gave me a needed bit of TLC, friend.
 I am seeing that no one REALLY "destroy" you without your "permission". We will be hurt if we 'love', but destroyed ONLY if we let shame overwhelm us.
  I am so happy to be seeing this.I am so glad for every broken thing and every screwed up thing b/c it is ALL part of learning. I stopped learning and hid behind' Miss Nice" since my early teens.
  WHATEVER happens to me,it is happening to ME---NOT Miss Nice( the fake)
, I feel more alive. I feel ready to go forward--maybe as a" Bull in a china shop" BUT as me-- the best me I can be at the moment. Maybe, tomorrow there will be a more mature me.I anticipate that there will  be--in time..                                         Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #48 on: December 11, 2007, 10:41:14 AM »
I think that I have the answer on "What to do when your heart is going to break?".You FEEL the pain.You embrace the pain b/c chances are it is FOO pain.. IF it were only situational pain it would hurt. However,IF it is FOO pain--it rages and hurts like HELL.
 So, I learned an important lesson. my pain has not killed me ,so far. Last night was 'bad". However,today,I feel cleansed and purified.I don't feel as "needy"
  I feel a little more centered. I know that this is just the beginning of the process of "coming together" or getting whole. However,it IS a step.Thanks for listening                   Ami
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #49 on: December 11, 2007, 10:57:42 AM »
Hi Ami-

It seems at night we have to stay put with our torments without the daily distractions, and it can be quite hard to handle the unmitigated pain in the seemingly endless darkness. I am glad that you are doing better this morning. You are healing from so much at this time- don't invest any one hurt with too much significance or magic- I know that you will sort things out. Hope you continue to feel better and better.

Love,

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Re: What Do You Do WHen Your Heart is Going to Break?
« Reply #50 on: December 11, 2007, 11:06:31 AM »
You are so smart, Changing. I know what you mean,                  Love   Ami


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No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung