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lighter

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Re: Frustration
« Reply #15 on: December 16, 2007, 07:41:38 AM »
No, I am waiting ofr a public position to open to apply. I want to go back to public schools with reirement plan and benefits, good isurance, and much higher salary.


Ok.... but I'm not sure that you wouldn't be able to get all those things in a homeschooling position with the right group.  I just think it wouldbe so wonderful to go to the beach for a week long lab and have everyone set up on laptops so they can work at their own faster pace and it just sounds like 100's of time the work could be completed in the time it takes to shuffle all those kids around and teach to the middle of the class over text books. 

You sound better today though..... ((lupita))

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« Reply #16 on: December 16, 2007, 04:39:19 PM »
Hi Observer, I played the cantata. Was not perfect but very beautiful. I am proud of my self. They gave me flowers. The choir director told me I was a very good pianist. The choir did an excellent job. I know I was not following her, too difficult music to be able to take my eyes away from the musci sheet. I feel so much better. Exhausted.

Lighter, it is too much trouble. Licenses, special exits, fire department has to aprove your home, neighbors do not like cars coming to leave kids, etc. If a kid gets hurt you are in big trouble. No nono no. I do not want to get involved in that. I give piano lessons at home. Just have a couple. Not easy to get students. Many piano teachers. But I remember that few years ago a kid hurt him self in my house with a piece of wood that came out of a piece of furniture. Only because God is big and protected me, the mother was very understanding, but I could have had huge problems. Nor only that, but sometimes kids invent fantasies and unless you have a union  like in public schools you are in huge trouble. They give more credibility to the kid than to an honest teacher.

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« Reply #17 on: December 16, 2007, 04:59:45 PM »
Hi Lupita,

  You are another person that I wanted to tell that I do read your posts when I get on the board.  Every once in a while I add a 
  comment, as with your citizenship, and the other day, on the post you made that you said took a different turn.

   I am glad that you find certain posters to be of help to you, and I see you learning to apply cognitive principles.

   The other thing I want to say is Merry Christmas to you, Lupita. 

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« Reply #18 on: December 16, 2007, 05:25:42 PM »
Cats!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Thank you so much. I love this thing of cognitive therapy. It makes you feel better almost immediately.
And Feliz Navidad.

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« Reply #19 on: December 16, 2007, 10:19:47 PM »
I'm so glad to hear you're feeling better,
and that you've used your music to lift your heart.

(((((((((Lupita)))))))

love to you,
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« Reply #20 on: December 17, 2007, 08:27:12 AM »
Me too, ((((( Lupita )))))

Wonderful to * see * the work that you have done in you, from one who loves music also.

So glad that you have connected with Observer, whoever he/she may be, and that all as been evidently to the good, for you.

Sincere love & best wishes to you along your life journey.

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« Reply #21 on: December 17, 2007, 09:38:40 AM »
I wasn't talking about your home, lol... Lupita.

I was talking about parents homeschooling and hiring a teacher to come in and teach in a classroom environment inside one of the parent's homes.

Homeschooling's a big movement now and I've been considering it for a while.  Other parents have thrown in their two cents and made it clear they'd be interested in joining the group if I put one together.

Hiring a full time teacher and bringing in special teacher for a day here and there..... going on trips to shark labs etc.

I'm sorry I haven't been able to make myself very clear but...... I hope you don't mind that I keep trying, lol?




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« Reply #22 on: December 17, 2007, 10:11:03 AM »
I homeschooled my eldest daughter through 3rd-5th, tried with Ndaughter but then put her back in school cause she was too nasty to handle, homeschooled 13 year old through 5th and 6th and she is now being homeschooled by a close friend in 7th grade.

It's a great choice if you really enjoy one on one time with your children and they are cooperative.

~Laura

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« Reply #23 on: December 17, 2007, 06:58:08 PM »
Sorry Lighter, that is not appealing to me. Still waiting for a public school teaching FL to younger students.

Anyway, yes, I am feeling better. Semester exams this week, and two weeks vacation next. Cant be any better.

On January will start again with fears and disappointments of teaching sixth period again. Hopefuly with more skills to deal with it.

Today I identified a thought that was making me feel bad. I thougt of my son getting from my mother all she denied to me. Then I thought, what good does it make to me to be sad. My son will come back in a few days. The girl friend probably will not be his girlfriend for a long time. What good does it make to me to be sad for what my mother did not give me. It is to suffer double. When she refused and now again. No reason for it.

Where are you observer? I need to share this feeling with you.

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« Reply #24 on: December 17, 2007, 07:07:57 PM »
I'm sorry it's still hurts fresh like it did years ago, Lupita.

I think that bc you still have hope that she'll be able to give you the love you deserved.

You wouldn't begrudge your son anything..... but watching your mother give something to him.... that she denied you as her child...... there's bile in that, anyone would have a hard time swallowing.

It doesn't matter if she knows what she's doing to you. 

I don't think she can do any better, Lupita.

What matters is that you teach your son to do better and you somehow release the hope that she'll ever be the good kind mama who takes you in her arms and rocks you while she aplogizes and takes it all back.

Cry and keen and let go of the hope, if you can.

Forgive her, if you can.

You're stronger than you know.

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« Reply #25 on: December 17, 2007, 07:09:13 PM »
Dear Lupita,
When I was in my twenties, I had nightmares 3,4 times a week about frustration. It was always the same theme - THEY knew something I didn't know and I had no idea what IT was. I do not believe the frustration is you or about you or because of you. I experience you, here on the board, as highly intelligent and sensitive. It is hard for such intelligent people as yourself to understand why people mistreat you. YOU know your motives; YOU know your heart - why can't they know it as well??? I have read much of the literature that says it is hard for someone of higher intelligence to understand those of less intelligence. Please do not think I am belittling you or anyone in your circle. I just know that it is hard when you are an intellectual. And a highly sensitive person. Have you read the book - The Highly Sensitive Person ?  It helped me.
"An unexamined life is a wasted life."
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« Reply #26 on: December 17, 2007, 07:14:39 PM »
Thank you Tow, still reading cognitive therapy, 700 pages. One by one. I work full time, play at a church and teach piano lessons. But That book is in my list. The next after this is the ones recommended by Bornfree about depression.

But I do feel better today. Thank you.

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« Reply #27 on: December 17, 2007, 07:16:08 PM »
Dear ToWrite,

Someone else spoke of that yesterday, Hope you don't mind my asking, do you have the name of the author?

As I had a thought of maybe purchasing a book such as that, as a gift for someone, who is such a sweet sensitive soul, and it may be just the right thing, as she is having an awful time at work, coincidentally.

Thanks, Leah
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« Reply #28 on: December 17, 2007, 07:19:06 PM »
Can't remember, Dear, off the top of my head. Will be glad to look for my copy (if it hasn't disappeared) and let you know. It is a fascinating book, with true stories and all.
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« Reply #29 on: December 17, 2007, 07:31:32 PM »
Thank you, ToWrite, that is so very kind of you, and is appreciated.  Love, Leah
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