My Own Power

[Certain Hope]

Dear Carolyn,
  I have had so many supernatural experiences that I should not doubt or fear,but I do both, regularly(lol) .Just when *I* think that I will do it my way, God will intervene and point me in the opposite direction . Later, I will find out that I was heading for a cliff, with my own wisdom(lol)
 I am a poor servant. S/times ,I don't want to even tell people that I beleive in Jesus b/c I look so bad(LOL)
 I am glad that God loves us despite our "goodness" or "worthiness".
 He must look at us as we do at our children, shaking His head,but saying,"I love that dumb kid"!            Ami
 

Dear Ami,

Me, too... exactly.

And also, as Leah is saying... I have been very much like Martha, running around in circles trying to fill myself with information, as though the power of all that could sustain me... and it cannot.

I just flipped the page on my little calendar here at home and read this verse:

Now glory to God! By  His mighty power  at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope.
Ephesians 3:20

And that, to me, is the key, dear Ami... not to tap into my own power, but to recognize consistently, moment by moment, that it is the power of the living God which alone sustains me. As we're reassured in Zechariah 4:6 and in so many ways and places throughout Scripture -
Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the Lord of hosts.

So... my day today and every day, each moment, must be focused on Him and on His strength, not on my own. If not, I'll crumble in an instant.

Love,
Carolyn

[Leah]

I just flipped the page on my little calendar here at home and read this verse:

Now glory to God! By  His mighty power  at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope. Ephesians 3:20

And that, to me, is the key, dear Ami... not to tap into my own power, but to recognize consistently, moment by moment, that it is the power of the living God which alone sustains me. As we're reassured in Zechariah 4:6 and in so many ways and places throughout Scripture - Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the Lord of hosts.

All the information that I have now, that I never had before, the tools of life and living a life, which had been denied me, are tools of freedom, for human interactions that are to be; healthy, balanced and wholesome, one to another.

All of this, received, with grateful thanks, after the Lord has led me, in seeking and finding, of which,has been instrumental in my being able to stand, in Him.  He alone, gets my grateful thanks, and the glory, not I.

Yesterday, when I spoke with a minister and his wife, whom I had not seen for sometime, they remarked on the new Leah, from the shipwrecked Leah, some four years ago.

They confirmed, now is the time, to step forward.

And now, it is the right time.

Love, Leah

[Izzy_*now*]

I also hope I'll know when to get the heck out of her way!

hi lollie

That is a wise stance and giving me an opening with which to agree.!!

What did your mother do successfully? Were the two of you in the same 'line of work/same education etc.? Comparisons are really never fair!!!

OK--the second quote---you didn't want to leave your mom behind! --to run with it, you couldn't because of her--without her you could have. Everyone's problems have a difference from the last problem.

I need to interject about my mother. When I was 17, grade 13 highschool, my mother went away to the hospital to be checked for an operation to help the weakness in her legs. The tumour on her spine/spinal cord was too large and inoperable. The pressure on her spine would put her in a wheelchair.
I finished high school and went away to work for the summer, then she was released............................. March-July.
I earned enough to go away to take a course and get a job and Boom ! I was on my own and away from my parents.

Meanwhile my 2 older sisters had done the same The eldest was married that year, 1956, after 3 years in nursing school and the next in business school married in 1957. They left home twice really.

There was no pressure any and all to stay at home and there was still my younger sister and brother at home. My brother until 1967 when he married.
Then my mother and father were alone.

We were all away from the physical abuse that no one talked about. Mainly my father, but mom had a hand in it!

I doubt they were full-feldged Ns, but had some weird traits and all of us were happy to get away. We just did, in our own way, but I'm sure that surrounding neighbours, church people thought it was cruel of us to leave Mom. She was even asked why she didn;t keep at least one daughter home to help, and she said that she never did anything to stand in our way of bettering ourselves.

This was pretty yappy of me

OK So you are an adult and you can leave for your betterment, but you can come back home on weekends or once a month---but whatever, your mother has NO right to stand in your way. I like to think that a mother gives birth and rasies the child and must be ready to "let go" when the time comes. If you feel she doesn't love you, just split, but I would ask first.

I asked once, my mom and dad if they ever loved me. I was doing their rax return at the time in their home. Neither said anything at all. THere was total silence as Dad left the room and mom just sat there, and I felt I had an answer of sorts! Either they did and couldn't say it, or they didn't!

Yes I am very proud of my daughter's accomplishments and that she still has other interests and goals.
how old..you and DD?


We are getting to 69 and 44 this spring! OUCH!

Love Izzy

[Leah]

I asked once, my mom and dad if they ever loved me. I was doing their rax return at the time in their home. Neither said anything at all. THere was total silence as Dad left the room and mom just sat there, and I felt I had an answer of sorts! Either they did and couldn't say it, or they didn't!

Dear Izzy

What springs to mind is that they may have felt a sense of overwhelming regret.

They may not have known how to handle emotions, so many did not way back then, this I have learned from speaking with my Father's family.  Which was somewhat enlightening to realize.

Just a thought.

Love, Leah

[Izzy_*now*]

Right on lollie,

I hear what you are ssaying. You feel it necessary to go back?

Pressed into areas that you didn't want and went your own way. Good for you!

As my DD says, "Too bad, so sad." My, my is that coming round again. *I* used to say it. So your mother wants to write. Well Too bad. so sad.

Oh yes! the Ns would lie about love-- I think Leah's answer to me is likely close-- not able to process emotions.--Izzy

and now?


back to AMI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Ami]

Guys,I don't mind if you hijack the thread.. Please keep discussing what you need to. If I want to go back to the topic, I will just start talking about it,again.
  Thanks for being so caring, though.                       Ami