So, yes, perhaps people don't want to "hear" what you say because they don't want to deal with it. That not only saddens me but hurts me. My thought is, if it hurts them just to listen, imagine how I felt being the person who actually experienced it! It seems to me as those who are on the receiving end of Ns, we are forever and ever having to be concerned about others---their feelings, their reactions. Even when the attention rightfully belongs on us, we have to be cognizant of how others will react....
The end result, at least in my case, is there is never anyone there for me. I've learned this especially in the last year and it is a really lonely place.
Dear ((( Sunblue )))
The context of what you have shared resonates with me, truly.
I have included the above extract, as my heart is reaching out to you, in your shoes, in your place, right now.
The understanding of the being " Dismissed " is new to me now, and very real, after the last day's work, thoughts, and writing it all down.
Being " Dismissed " is soul destroying, that's the very expression that occurs to me, as one feels Nullified of being, as a person.
Then, one still owns the concern or issue in ones life, to which their is no listening ear or heart available, hence, Voicelessness.
All of these real terms and real expressions weave together and bind us, enslave us, alone, with a pocket full of eggshells.
We need to * be * here, we really do, with freedom, to achieve the liberty, that is ours, to own, for our Self, as a person.
...... a Healthy Balance is life breathing, for Acceptance.
My heart encourages you, Sunblue, to simply * be * and hold onto the freedom that is yours to * be * here, right now.
When I spoke with my maternal uncle he told me straight "sorry, but, I do not want to know" Truth was, that what I was trying to share, in hope of some answers etc., made HIM uncomfortable, becuase HE had known and chose to do nothing, for me as a child.
Hope my words are of some help.
Love & Warm Thoughts,
Leah
