Dear Axa, thanks much for this, it put some starch back in my spine!
He cannot humiliate you unless you allow it
I knew that...
And CB, for this:
this isnt someplace that you need to go to in order to get your character tweaked
You know, I think that's what the shame-habit is...I slide into that level of self-criticism. Doubting my character.
When an N begins murmuring devaluing things (if I'm not on guard), it slides right between the ribs. Thanks for the bucking up...
And Beth, for this:
Try to shrug it off as much as possible and know you are doing a good job.
I did just that, and accomplished plenty today. More than usual. (And you do get it being painful, when you know you do well...)
And GS, for this:
were you in a nurturing situation in life you could draw on that nurturing - having to draw up that nurtuing from ex nihilo is extremely difficult on a good day and next to impossible in bad times
Your understanding was a comfort, and reminded me to give myself a break. So I was human enough to weep. If he didn't like it, tough cookies.
And Leah, for this:
He had most likely been simmering this up for sometime, waiting his chance to pounce, in your vulnerable tiredness. It's about him
Spot on. He actually said, "Well, I've been witholding this..." when he began his tear-down. I swear they enjoy it. Ugh.
And TT, for this:
Take going to see her out of the mix a few evenings a week.
And yes, tension dropped today.
Thank you again for reminding me I don't have to be a hero and see Mom every night. I feel so sorry for her but you're right.
And for the Rozerem reminder. I did try it once and it didn't do a lot, but it was only for a few nights. I'll try chamomile & melatonin tonight, it'd be nice to not add another Rx. But i can talk to my doc about Rozerem if my own regimens fail.
And thanks Hermes, umm...do you drive a Hummer?
I don't think he'll fire me, not yet anyway. But it reminds me to keep my antennae out. There's some neat people in my simplicity group who are starting another "green" business. Hah!
Write, I feel pampered by your thoughtfulness. Thank you.
love to all,
Hops
