Being optimistic!

[Overcomer]

It is sunny and the freezing weather finally broke-the snow is melting!  I am holed up in bed all week with black and blue eyes but I am happy.  I figure my destiny is unfolding right here in front of me.  I have four resumes out because I am serious about not working with my mom.  I told her point blank that my health is affected by working with her and I could not continue to put my health at risk-she did not hear me but I heard me and I meant it.  Life is looking good to me right now!

[Ami]

Rock On,Kelly!!!!                Love, Ami

[Overcomer]

Thanks Am!  Nothing like sunshine after the world's longest winter to bring out some optimism!  I think life is going to be ok.  My new business is a winner and I know it.  I can feel the health every time I take a shot of my vitamins!

[Gaining Strength]

I hope you really do it this time Overcomer.  Don't give in!!!!

[Ami]

(((((((((((Kelly))))))))))
Thinking of you!              Love   Ami

[gratitude28]

Kelly,
I missed something somewhere. Why are your eyes black and blue??? Are you OK?
Love, Beth

[Overcomer]

Oh I had my eyelids done.  I work next door to a plastic surgery center and one of the girls told me she was sure insurance would pay for it-I jumped through hoops and sure enough they paid and  I got them done!  Should look 10 Years younger!

[Certain Hope]

Wow, Kelly... you have been busy! Congratulations  !!!!

I really like this, so much:

...she did not hear me but I heard me and I meant it.

That's it! Saying what we mean and meaning what we say... regardless of the reception we get.

Love to you,
Carolyn

[Overcomer]

Yeah that was a great quote was it not?  But I have decided that her hearing me was not as important as me knowing what I was saying.  I have beat my head against the wall for so many years really trying to control her in some weird way.  Trying to make her see life my way.  But we all know that will NEVER HAPPEN so I can only change ME!  And the way I see myself.  I no longer describe myself through HER LENSES!

[Gaining Strength]

Oh my heavens Overcomer.  My heart hopes to the depths of its capacity that you are really poised to fully embrace the knowledge you have expressed here.  You are so right.  She cannot hear.  But you have shouted loud enough this time so that at last YOU are able to hear.  I am so, so hopeful for you OC.

[Overcomer]

Thanks Gaining!  You have been telling me for months to stop talking about it and DO SOMETHING!  Knowing and doing are two different things.  I have never felt free until now.  I have pled my case to one of the guys who coaches us.  HE KNOWS.  Many people know.  The only person who does not know is mom.  When I tell her I am leaving and she acts surprised I am going to shake my head and remind her that I DID tell her-she just chose not to listen to me.  This feeling is freedom.  No concern.

[Ami]

I am rooting for you,Kelly!                Love   Ami

[Overcomer]

I do have it.  It is this feeling I have had this past week has been such a relief.  I have been so happy to be away from her.  It has been so nice to not  worry about it.

[gratitude28]

Just read about your eyes, Kelly!!! I hope they look fabulous (I am sure they will).
I also hope you will be ready to make your break soon! Wishing you strength and courage!
Beth

[Overcomer]

I got a call from our franchise coach.  He talked about how my mom was having a tough time letting go.  I had to smile as I was talking to him-she still thinks she is in control!  No I am in control of MY life-not her.  So let her think she has a say in my life-she does not.  That is what has finally made me feel free!  I am in control of what I do.  That is all I need-the power to make the decisions for myself!  Is is so freeing!