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Wake up from a bad dream
« on: April 22, 2008, 09:41:41 AM »
Mel Gibson in Conspiracy Theory-everyon thought he was delusional but he was not.  Someone wrongly accused of murder and sent to death row.  Running away from a serial killer and just when you see the door he grabs you and pulls you in for the kill.  THIS is how I feel.  I am running away from my mom all the while she is labeling me as the one with the problem.  I am stupid.  I stay for more abuse and beg for her to admit wrongdoing!  She will never and I have to walk and never look back!
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #1 on: April 22, 2008, 09:54:58 AM »
Dear Kelly
 You described the NM ,perfectly. Everything the N hates about herself is projected on us b/c we were more vulnerable,as the child.
 I am seeing it for the first time, ever. You have to see the "gap" , which is that the problem is THEM. You have to see the projection, Kelly.   Love  Ami
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #2 on: April 22, 2008, 10:11:39 AM »
I see it, Ami.  Problem is the N mom will never EVER admit wrongdoing and I have to live with the frustration that she really believes I am the one with the problem.  And then she has the counselor believing it.  Well GS will be proud because this time I am gone.  The said inside me has eaten away at my body and I an always in pain-same as your stomach aches.  I need to get over my anger at the injustice of it all.  I need to NOT care.  I want her to suffer but the concern should be for me.
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #3 on: April 22, 2008, 10:49:13 AM »
Dear Kelly,
 I am so, so angry at mine,right now, because I SEE what she did to me and I could KILL her, with my bare hands. She violated me b/c I was weak .
 I am so angry right now, too.      Ami
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #4 on: April 22, 2008, 11:07:47 AM »
Kelly,
I am learning that we can never prove what is what. We just have to learn to love our lives in a way that is good and rewarding for us. I think that your best bet is to stop focusing on proving her wrong, as you said, and moving along into your own life.
Love, Beth
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #5 on: April 22, 2008, 11:11:25 AM »
Yes we can go off the deep end of anger together!  Problem is we both suffer physically because of it.  I have not been pain free for a couple of years.  I guess for me it was not a blatant thing early on-it was mind control.  Now that I have gotten free from her manipulations she is on the offensive.  If she can paint me a lunatic then she is free from any remorse for her actions.  I believe she has a heart and that is why she chooses delusions so she can live with what she has done to me.
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #6 on: April 22, 2008, 11:15:41 AM »
I have stomach problems ,as you know, from stress.I hate her so much, Kelly. I really, really saw how she treated me and I am filled with hatred and rage at her.
  They LOVE to try to destroy a vulnerable person. They hate any good qualities like love,kindness etc, They see a red flad and they see "weakness' and want to destroy it.
    Ami
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #7 on: April 22, 2008, 11:23:46 AM »
Well we are singing the same song here.  Our rage at the injustice eats away at us does it not?  Same with our Hs-They do not seem to get it.  I was lying in bed yesterday-sick-and I asked him about his new job and he snapped at me-I told him I wanted him to treat me as nice as he treated the dog and then he said what do you want to do Kelly?  Basically asking if I wanted a divorce and I wanted to yell YES I WANT A DIVORCE YOU ASSHOLE!  Maybe I am crazy!  I have road rage-I am impatient!
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #8 on: April 22, 2008, 11:31:53 AM »
My friend and her H were here,today. I don't think you OR I descend to this---he whistles for her,like a dog--bleh.     Ami
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #9 on: April 22, 2008, 11:34:38 AM »
EW!  Tell him to take a flying leap off a short pier!
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #10 on: April 22, 2008, 11:39:14 AM »
Your H whistling for you HAS to be an all time low.        Ami
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #11 on: April 22, 2008, 11:43:22 AM »
Kelly
 AS I feel my anger, I feel more whole. James has been helping me with Alice Miller concepts. He says you have to feel your anger an under that is hurt and fear of abandonment. He said that we "forgive" too fast.
 I feel such an anger .
Kelly, WE are not crazy. Don't let your M put that on you. You are as sane as I am(LOL)   Love   Ami



PS  In the N world , the crazy one (the N) tells you YOU are crazy. The kind one is the bad one. Good is bad. Bad is good. Beauty is ugly. Ugly is beauty.
 Everything beautiful about life is MADE ugly by the  N.
They want to destroy anything that has virture. They want to bring it down to what THEY are---ugly.
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #12 on: April 22, 2008, 02:11:12 PM »
Maybe that is why my mom has had so much plastic surgery-because she knows she is ugly
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #13 on: April 22, 2008, 05:03:14 PM »
(((((((((((((Overcomer))))))))))))))))

So sorry you are hurting

love,
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Re: Wake up from a bad dream
« Reply #14 on: April 22, 2008, 05:09:43 PM »
Actually,Kelly
 The N's and abusers,in general, FEEL very ugly. They don't have the beauty of life in them. They take beauty and stomp it out.
                    Ami                                                                                             
 
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