another tearjerker--another cry

[Izzy_*now*]

'Pay It Forward'

So I'm getting good at these sobbing sessions, March 30 to April 23-- not even a month.

Anyone seen that movie?

[teartracks]

Iz,

One of my very favorites.  What the world needs now is Pay It Forward!

Who would have ever thought we'd be celebrating tears.  I'm happy for you!

tt

[Overcomer]

Very good movie!  Glad the well has not run  dry.

[Certain Hope]

Dear Izzy,

Great movie... and a wonderful way to live!  Are you feeling refreshed after the tears? I hope so.

With love,
Carolyn

[lighter]

Ahhhh, Izz.

Yes I saw it and yes I cried.

"pay it forward" is a part of my emotional vocabulary, as a matter of habit, since seeing the movie.

I've always thought about life that way..... believed in it.

I just didn't know it had a name.

So glad to hear the tears are flowing.....

remember not to hold your breath or do any of the things we normally do to stop.

You have years and years of crying to catch up on.

(((Izzy)))

[Izzy_*now*]

Thanks you for posting tt, OC and CH

No the well isn't dry and I wondered about that after an hour over dogs, and felt cleansed and refreshed

and lighter

I did try to make myself stop, after 15 minutes, almost did but started up again, so I just went with the flow.

No need to mention every episode of sobbing, but at least I know it wasn't a one time event and I slept like a baby, again, with no bad dreams.

Thanks all
Izzy

[debkor]

Iz,

I cried my  heart out at that movie too.  Then ending, oh the ending,  cry, cry,cry. 

Love
Deb

[lighter]

I'm glad you didn't stifle them, Izz.

Question.

Could you remember how it felt to cry, with full abandon, as a child.....?

Lighter

[Leah]

I am thankful, Izzy

that you have posted about this movie, as I had not heard of it, and would very much like to watch it.

Tearjerkers have always been a pleasure for me!  I know, sounds strange, but, I have always wept and needed a box of kleenex at my side.  I have been teased numerous times, especially, when in the cinema and sobbing my heart out!  Lol

So glad to know that you have had the pleasure of tears, refreshing, I believe.

Love, Leah

[Hopalong]

Me too, Izz. I loved it.

The sincerity of a child is so overlooked in this world.

xxoo, passing tissues...

Hops

[Leah]

BTW last week, Madame X with Lana Turner was on tv during the afternoon, and I thought of you, Izzy,
because you had mentioned this movie.  

However, alas, I only spotted the movie .... the following day!  So no recording of the movie.

[Izzy_*now*]

Hey lighter

The first time I remember crying with abandon, I was 19-20 years old, away from home and my roommate away for the weekend. I was alone, lonely, feeling unloved and I could cry with no one hearing me.

I never cried that way, that I remember , BEFORE that age. (left home at 17)

That raises some questions I expect.

Love
Izzy

Leah
I hope you enjoy your cry when you see the movie.
ADD IN] so sorry you missed Madame X


hops

The boy reminded me of my grandson, the colouring and the way his emotions showed on his face, but he is only 3 in this pic.

My little grandson, now 21

[lighter]

::Gulp::

I'm afraid to hear the reason why you never cried during a heartbreaking childhood, such as yours.

Izzy..... was it bc there was no safe place to cry?

Or....

were you too busy surviving to give yourself that release?

Some other reason.... do ya think?

You saw the quesitons coming, I know: /

Lighter

[Izzy_*now*]

hi lighter,

I have no idea why I never had a big cry when I was little, bigger, then bigger, then finally 19.

I suspect there is much still uncovered, but I can live, at my age, with what I now have and that is more and more respect for me from my daughter, after her spending so long with an N, then remembering everything I have done to keep us on track.

The second only time I went to my mother with a question,  was, "Where did I come from?"

She was working at the klitchen counter, at the second farm so I would be 8 or over

She said, "Oh we found you in a ditch someplace and brought you home!"

I never went to her about the 'ganging up" I have no idea what I thought. I just hurt inside and felt left out and away from everyone.

Oh Geesh!

Love
Izzy

The first only time I asked her something, I posted before, about asking her, when I was about 4, where she was going. She was washing up to go someplace and said "I am going crazy!"
I didn;t know what crazy was, and never asked. I determined it was her crawling into the chicken coop in the back garden.

 (I find this very important about parents not explaining, telling lies, ......) She went away and came home with my baby brother.

??????????????????????

[lighter]

I think children are as intelligent as adults.... just not in posession of mature communication tools.

I'm sorry your feelings and questions were dismissed.

I can only try to put myself in your mother's shoes.....

and forgive her for being overwhelmed.....

not getting her own needs met.....

and unable to do better, for whatever reasons.

She just couldn't.... or she would have.

I know this..... I've seen pictures of you and I want to hold that child and nurture you the way you deserved.
 

You deserved so much better......

and gave your own daughter so much more. 

Lighter