Ellie, thanks so much. much of the time, i feel "everything" is wrong, and can't break things down, or see any slight improvement i make.
having you actually list specific behaviors and your responses to them, and also your progress, is extremely helpful to me.
Hope you don't mind if i take your list to use for myself (yes, i see myself in each of your statements), and of course, expand on it for the things i really need to identify and modify.
congratulations on having the fortitude to really look at yourself, realize the things that kept you from living a healthy life, and doing the difficult work of changing things you felt needed changing.
keep it up, and good luck!
bobbie