Author Topic: Plans for the Board  (Read 8852 times)

rosencrantz

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Re: Plans for the Board
« Reply #30 on: November 26, 2008, 03:49:43 PM »
Now...what brought me back after so much time away?  I must have heard you through the ether!

This board saved my soul, my life and my sanity

I received love and pain in equal quantity.  I learned there are some real sh*** out there!  I also learned I was worth something to some people who appreciated me.

And then I discovered that all the sh*** out there may just be people with Aspergers Syndrome. 

And my world shifted like a kaleidoscope.

But the pain and stress continued relentlessly.

And then I discovered I had cancer.

I would have been very happy for it to just take me away.

But I discovered that some real 'offline' people thought I was worth something - quite a lot actually.

It wasn't my nearest or dearest, that's for sure.

A big leap for freedom later, I'm living on my own in a different town many miles away from misery.

I chose not to do the cut and burn but...it appears that I am cancer-free anyway

I have found my voice again - playreading, singing...

I look well, I look happy.

I'm ready to scoop my life back up again.

Thank you for this Board - I rather hope it will stay here forever because here....I exist.  And I didn't do much of that before.

I exist - my stories exist - my passing friendships exist - my passing emnities exist - the grief exists - the cleverness exists.  I exist here - I cannot tell you how important that symbolic existence is - even tho I don't pop by any more and haven't done so in years.  I know I'm....here.

Thank you for this board and the opportunity to talk about pain and shame and double rainbows.  They exist, too.
"No matter how enmeshed a commander becomes in the elaboration of his own
thoughts, it is sometimes necessary to take the enemy into account" Sir Winston Churchill

Ami

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Re: Plans for the Board
« Reply #31 on: November 27, 2008, 09:41:42 AM »
((((((Rosencrantz)))))
       
No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.        Eleanor Roosevelt

Most of our problems come from losing contact with our instincts,with the age old wisdom stored within us.
   Carl Jung

JustKathy

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Re: Plans for the Board
« Reply #32 on: December 25, 2008, 03:27:45 PM »
I found this board many years ago, probably close to its start date. It’s been about ten years since I got a diagnosis of NPD for my mother, which is when I started combing the Internet for information. After the board changed formats a few years ago, my post count was reset and I now show as a newbie. Most of you will probably consider me a newbie anyway, as I rarely post here. I mostly come here to read, but have also gone through a few lengthy absences. Life gets busy, things happen, and when my N mother isn’t tormenting me, there isn’t a need to come here.

BUT, I always end up here on Christmas day, the absolute worst day of the year for me. It’s been a painful day for me for as long as I can remember, and now, eight years after completely detaching myself from my N mother, she still finds ways to get to me on the day when she knows I’m most vulnerable.

So, here I am, seeing this post for the first time.

Dr G, if you need to close the board for personal reasons, I respect and understand your decision. I do want to thank you for creating this board in the first place, as it has helped me more than I can say. Before I found this place, no one (including several therapists) believed the stories I told about my mother. Coming here and reading about identical experiences, finding answers, and learning of ways to cope . . . well, I could never put a price on that.

That said, if the costs associated with maintaining the board is a driving issue, I too would be willing to make a contribution to keep it going. When my mother is on the attack, I’ve always known that I could come here for help. I know that I would feel a bit lost without having this board here.

I’m rambling, but let me just say thank you to everyone here for your words of wisdom, your encouragement, and the stories you’ve chosen to share. I hope this board will continue on, but if not, well, THANK YOU.

Kathy