Life takes a turn.......................

[Ami]

I agree with Hops. Come tell  your thoughts and feelings. We are here. We care!   (((((Kelly))))))))
When Scott died, I came to the Board. People may think that was stupid but that was what I did. I came to my friends. I still feel that way.       Ami

[Overcomer]

Your love and support are awesome!!  Thank you all.  I went to the oncologist yesterday and we are going to do chemo to try to attack the cancer before it attacks me.  So that is good.

Vent?  I read a book about Toxic Emotions.  I knew I would someday get cancer.  My family has it all over the place.  My dad's mom and four of five sisters died of it.  My mom had it and so did her sis.

I don't want to blame my mom and my h but so much stress.  SO much stress.....I wish I wouldn't have had to deal with all her stuff for so long..........our relationship is the best it has ever been......and now I am sick.

But I am a fighter!!  Scrappy!!  I will fight this!!

Thanks for listening!

[Ami]

I love you, Kelly.          Ami

[Lupita]

Dear Kelly, I am so sorry, so sorry you have to go through all this. But, hopefully, with all the modern medicine, you will find something that will help you heal all your wounds. I will kep you in my poaryers every day.

God bless you!

[Certain Hope]

I'm praying for you, too, Kelly.
Hold on tightly to Jesus' hand!

Love,
Carolyn

[Ami]

I am praying every day and will check in every day. Love you, Kelly.           Ami

[mudpuppy]

Kelly,

Sorry to hear the news.
If it helps any, remember my wife was near death, as I shared here just about exactly three years ago. The cancer was throughout her skeleton and lymph nodes. She's happy and healthy now, so there is plenty of hope for you.
Prayers for you.

mud

[Overcomer]

I remember when Mud's wife went through all this.

I am really not bitter.  My mom and I have a rather good relationship now.  Boy, it took years and lots of tears and fighting and reading books, etc. to get here.

I am not really afraid.  The initial diagnosis and then all the stuff I read on the internet scared me but the oncologist was wonderful and I will fight this.

I get angry at people who do not go to the doc.  I have known my h almost 8 years and he has never gone to the doc or dentist.  I am very faithful with pap and mammos and I have been hounding the docs about this back ache...which turned out to be cancer...

Love Kell

[Ami]

Dear Kelly
 I admire you so very much!         Love  Ami

[Gaining Strength]

Okay - I completely missed this whole thread.  But I want to let you know this - look at your first post - your being knew to get that hysterectomy and you found that cancer.  That is a wonderful miracle - the first of many in this healing process that you are on.

Love to you and daily prayers.

[Ami]

Dear Kelly
 Whenever I sit on my porch and look at the water, I pray for you. I know you will be OK. It is a knowing.     Love you,  Ami

[Overcomer]

I have to look at the bright side..................this hysterectomy was my call.  I am glad I did it because they found an endometrial mass in the uterus and masses on the ovaries, etc.  I knew I was in bad shape.  One thing my mom would always do was question me and why I was always complaining about my periods and pain.  Well after they got my uterus and all that stuff out of me and then they happened upon the mass...............see, mom, I did have a reason for all the complaining of pain!!

But if I had decided to tough it out they would have never found the mass and my back pain would still be there!!  So from that point, GS it was a miracle!!!

I go to Mayo on the 22nd for tests and see the doc on the 23rd.....

[Hopalong]

You have an outstanding attitude, Kelly...
(and good intuition, too)

bravos bravos!

love,
Hops

[Overcomer]

I am up late.  Ran out of pain pills so I don't just conk out anymore.  The pain from the hysterectomy is getting better.

I go to Mayo on the 22 and  23....tests and then a visit from the doc.  My mind is a wandering as I have been up all night.  Scared to lose this battle because I have too much living to do.  Have been reading this book Cured of Cancer and reciting the bible verses within.  I am up for the fight.

I am still dealing with h who does not handle stress well.  He either rants and raves or drinks and gets all clingy and stupid.  If I didn't think the stress of a divorce would be too much now, I would ask him to leave.  Then I think of all the stuff he does do like mow.  But he should be trying to be strong so he can support me during this difficult time.....but the day I got home from the hospital he cooked and then yelled to me, "it's ready."  I had to slowly get out of bed and make my way to the kitchen to make myself a plate.  Anyone else would have made me a plate and brought it up.

Prayers y'all......for peace.

My mom went to convention for our industry.  She loves it so.  I am going to ask her if she wants to come back to work and let me be retired.

[Ami]

Dear(( Kelly))
 Your H sounds very numb. I cringed when he told you to come and get the plate. It brought back memories of my C section when my H told me to get off the couch and go for a jog.
         Love  Ami