.............. 'anxiety'. Well he never did get over it, in fact, he strongly advised me that at the interview: That I not deny that I'm anxious, just tell them the truth that I'm anxious. By this time I realized, if I want this training - hide, so I went along with his notions, and he was happier, he thought he'd done something, and told me I sounded mroe relaxed or something.
This was not a narcisistic man, I could tell there was another disorder enterely in opperation. He had cooked up such a false self for himself, no real communication. This type of thing creates the perfect medium for all the disorders to continue. Yet its the principle that is in opperation here, I wasnt damaged, theres no neglect or abuse, but I do believe that what happened came from the same underlying priniples, the 'false self', the compliance with some hierarchy at the cost of genuiness, of realness.
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So when one puts the focus on the principles in opperation, ie its about the whole octopus, not the individual tentacles, tho these tentacles appear in such different shapes, sizes and nuances. All arising out of 'the dynamic'.
So, if an N went to see this T. - imagine, if, for example an N who was abusive went to see him for couples counselling, .... and etc. Then, as he seems to be so out of touch with whats really going on, that whatever may be going on behind closed doors would be perpetuated and perhaps even reinforced, with God knows what consequences, including to children perhaps. And this T., the trainer, is just so umm he's a really good teacher, but he's kind of bland, blaze, - a kind of 'optical neglect'. As I see it, its like the dynamic, one disorder in relation to another keeps the system going, and some souls go to the wall meantime.
Thanks for listenting, I feel Im gettng towards clarity as I share and listen here, well, I hope so.