The word that comes to mind is that she's infantilizing you.
And when that doesnt work, she just tries to insult you.
Its not surprising you felt the after shocks of PtSD like symptoms, its being around someone toxic, so there bound to be effects.
.......... and the way sealinx put it .......~"They are very much like cats toying with a dying lizard. The cat is not being cruel, its just being a cat. Like the cat, they toy with people because because they lack the ability to feel compassion or empathy which you need to feel both love, hate and everything in between............." is powerfully accurate, and chilling!
an N will infantilize or demean because they 'have to' export thier own shame, into or onto someone else, so they can feel better. Its her shame, not yours, but inevitably you'll feel some of it for a while as it was aimed at you.
Sometimes when I can really work out what doesnt belong to me, I can free myself a bit better.
You're doing the best you can.
i think the sex industry is a way of dehumanizing self or other, its a sort of way of actng out the hypnotic induction of the N. who has an agenda to objectify the other person.
Its good you shared this here.
