First of all, Thank you to Dr. G for this place. Second, Thank you friends for being here. It is so nice to have this place to come and talk with people who understand.
Last night, several couples, five extra women. Teacher said, those who can switch, please, take the ladies in the center. M said, I have to dance with these women. I did not move, I did not do anything. Suddenly, other gentlemen from other couples took those ladies. M said, it is OK I guess. That was the first hour of class.
Everything went fine.
Second hour of class, the moves were difficult, ladies came to us ands asked us if we were going to switch, M said we are staying together. I know that he only stayed with me because he knows that I will practice with him and he can feel comfortable, he can mess the move and we will find the problem and fix it and keep dancing. But he knows that other ladies might criticize him. I asked him if he wanted to switch and he said, stop asking me to switch, I will switch if I want to. That was a complement and not, because that meant to me in a way, he feels comfortable enough with me to dance and learn, but once he learns the move he once to have fun with other ladies. I am a piece of furniture to practice and leave once he feels comfortable. But I can see it the bad way or the good way. At this moment I want to see it the good way. He feels comfortable with me and he wants to practice with me because he is comfortable.
The teacher’s partner instructor lady, was tall, blonde, blue eyes, slender, like a model, and incredible dancer. She came several times to us to correct us and she was very nice and very professional, she danced with M in a very professional way, she smiled to me and pet me in the head.
M had told me that she was a bitch. She is intimidating because of her exceptional beauty, but she was so nice and professional….. I was impressed.
Third class, third hour, the advanced class, all the people that usually come to the parties milongas on the formal dances, came to this class. A woman tried to dance with M several times. Tall, blonde, white. I am short and olive skin. M moved from my site. I did not go after him because I was trying to do what I said I was going to do, besides he has pushed me away in other occasions that I went after him, so I did not move and stayed immutable, still, at my place. Teacher said “take your partners” That woman , when she saw that M moved away from me, she immediately moved close to him, next to him. I was seeing my self, again watching him dancing with another woman. I did not move, I did not do anything. She looked at him and at me. He looked at me, I looked at her and at him. He moved back from the opposite site or the circle to me again, he went all the way through a big circle, to come back to me, he said that he wanted to dance with me.
We stayed together the rest of the night. Suddenly, a guy came and told him, I am having a private party in my house, I am recruiting men to come dance with my female friends because I have many and I cannot dance with all of them. M looked at me and said “he meant both of us”. The rest of the evening was wonderful. We went to his house after. Today I cooked a latin breakfast for him and he loved it.
Today, he asked me if I wanted to go the party of that guy, I said, I was not invited. I said I did not want to go since I did not feel welcome by that guy. In fact, I feel it is very bad of that guy. To ask my boyfriend, my first boyfriend in so many years, the only man I care about, to come and want to take him away from me.
His name starts with F. I will call him F. I told M that when F had a girlfriend which by the way was the Russian girl, he did not even switch in class, he did not dance with other women, he devoted all his attention to her, and now that Russian girl was done with him he is trying to destroy my relationship because he is jealous. M agreed with me.
I think that M starts to understand. I hope I am not wrong. But we had a great time yesterday and hopefully we will have a good time today too since we have a huge party tonight. Wedding of two tango teachers in a tango milonga party.
I will dress wonderfully and behave like Maril Streep. Hopefully.
If I could phone someone of you tonight if I have a bad time, to help me breath, that would be so awesome.
Love you all.