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teartracks

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Re: Boundary defining moments
« Reply #15 on: July 09, 2010, 01:02:24 AM »


Hi PR,

Hey swimmer... I think your thread hits on something I've fumbled around with words, trying to describe. I'm calling it (provisionally) the "flip side of boundaries". And it's VERY important!! Just as important as being able to stop people from bulldozing right over you... BUT:

I don't know if this is exactly - or even close to - what prompted your post. So let me know, OK? Sometimes my "intuition" plays tricks on me... and I get it completely wrong. Especially on this topic!! That's 'coz I'm still learning about this side of boundaries, I think. And oh yes - I'm sort of the "queen" of babble - it takes me a whole lot of words to "spit something out"... 'coz I'm like a blind person in a dark, infinite space... and I can feel things that I think might be "x"... but I'm not sure. I think I've even contradicted myself in the same post! LOL! S'OK, you know? We're all kinda fumbling in the dark... there isn't any "manual" for what we're doing, to consult. I've gotten used to being proved wrong; or barking up the wrong tree... it's allowed... and nothing bad will happen, if I am wrong. In fact, I've learned some very helpful and important things this way. So, with that disclaimer:


I only had to read this far for your post to strike a familiar chord concerning how well I do or do not relate the contents of my mind and heart on a subject.   A familiar mantra in my FOO was, SHUT UP AND BE QUIET!   I think the only good grade I ever got (and probably will ever get) for writing was in grammar school  for summarizing the life of Huckleberry Finn.  It's necessary for me to be aware that others may not 'get' a particular thing I'm trying to patch together in a post especially if I have articulated poorly.  I hold myself responsible for that, but if they don't get it, it's okay, my next post encouraged by responses may help me post more clearly the next time.  Patch is the operative word when I'm punching in a dozen directions trying to find coherence to my thoughts on new ideas or issues.  I've thought of subscribing to Grammar Girl editing, but I doubt if even she could make sense of my mind soup especially in the early stages!  It ALWAYS helps when others post their thoughts back.  It doesn't matter if they 'get it' it's that they care and their responses nudge me a little farther down the path of understanding whatever is trying to gel in my head.   Additionally about posting, what Hops said provides a reasonable balance where responses are concerned:


I have always told myself that it must, always, be fully voluntary, to comment or not...I can only hope people know readers hear them, and my belief is, caringly.

Life just gets so complex that sometimes I can't respond to more than a few...I'm guarding energy boundaries in my own life too and that sometimes is probably an influence on what I do here.

For me, not responding means I just have nothing helpful to say, or don't have the energy to craft something that could perhaps be helpful. Not that I don't care about the poster.

There are many stories here that break one's heart....

love,
Hops

 
I think the common denominator/equalizer on the board is that most of us are working through REAL issues and probably wouldn't post at all if we weren't.   IMO Vboard is a safe haven for hurting people and I think we're all responsible to contribute as we're able, keeping that in mind.

tt




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bearwithme

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Re: Boundary defining moments
« Reply #16 on: July 09, 2010, 02:13:32 AM »
Swimmer,

it is hard to articulate sometimes.  This I understand all to well.  Over stating or under stating things is so frustrating and when people don't seem to catch my drift, then I fall apart and blame myself for missing the point then here I go again with all the negative banter in my head.

I like want Gainingstrength said about declaring that you need feedback right away on a subject.  I do this often.  I also respond to other's who do because, hey, it's not often someone has the cajones to say "help me, I'm lost." 

When we post something, we put ourselves out there and that's not what we are supposed to do under the N guidelines of life.  So our stuff is flappin in the breeze and our vulnerability get exacerbated.

Don't know if any of this makes sense but trying to put things into words is tricky.

Practice this:  get a blank piece of paper and start writing.  Write anything.  Keep going evethough it doesn't make any sense and write whatever comes to mind. Words, phrases, numbers, cliches, songs, whatever.   Keep it going as long as you can until you fill the paper, both sides. If you don't know how to start, start by saying, "I have nothing to write, but this."  Do this once a day for a week and you'll be surprised at what you write down and how well you articulate your thoughts. 

If this is useless information or I'm off point, I apologize. 

Thank you for being her, Swimmer.
Bear