Lighter, the ex-wife’s lover will not be here. This woman, according to M, lives with a man and his wife, they are swingers, and belong to the only nudist camp here in the area. I know that the nudist camp is true. He let me use scrap paper for my studies and I found a copy of that woman contract with the nudist camp.
M says that she comes here because the kids would no go see her anywhere. So, the only way for her to see her kids is coming to the house when they are here.
I would say that if they see her kids or not it is not M’s problem, it should not be. She should fix that problem. Not M.
So, I left them for seven hours the other day. I went to different errands and what happened? The ex came. They went shopping together. The kids walk together and the ex and M walk together. So, I give him time and instead of spending time with his children the first thing he does is spend time with the ex.
I think he wants to re-live his family life, although his children are over 25 yo.
Hops, you are right, blended families is going to be something very difficult.
PR, you are right. He might be someone to keep. That is the only reason I continue with this Endeavour. Because I think that way too. Few men take care of women in need, When they see a woman in need they run away. M helps, blends me with his family, brothers, mother, kids, ex-wife, etc. That sounds like a good man to me, It is just the other aspect that I have to re-evaluate like Lighter says, pros and cons.
Is the sense of belonging too important to put up with his dementia? Because the things he does I think are result of dementia. Like trying to organize a thanks giving that he has not done in years, why now? Just to ruin our anniversary? We were alone last year. And that is why we hooked up. Because we were alone during thanks giving day. I thought we were going to do the same and he surprised me . It seems that he does not want me to have peace.
CB, I think the way you are is because you have several children and if is not one it is another, so they will always keep you busy. I only have one and he is engaged and he is crazy about his girlfriend, and he has little time for me. I do not mind that. I want him happy.
Also, CB, you were raised in USA, so your mentality has to be a little more liberal than mine. I do not understand how can you hook up with a Mexican and understand each other. That to me is a miracle. He is happy with you because you have nothing to do with your ex. If you ex was around, he would not be very happy. Now, I am an expert in latin lovers. If you want advice about him, I can give you a lot of wisdom. They are selfish. I am very happy for you and for the Mexican guy who got you, he is very lucky to have you. Any man would be lucky to have you. I bet he wont let you go because he knows your value.
But, the fact that I suffer about M’s ex is like you say, ti pushes buttons of my insecurities. She is not more intelligent than me, She does not have education, she is not pretty, she is overweight, and she has a lover, she wants to have his Thanks givng with her lover and come here late. But M wants her here and she does not want. She only comes here when I am at work. I have talked to her in person twice. She deos not seem to me like a bad person by M satanize her when talking to me. But he writes her nice e mails and M cannot do one single step without asking her for her opnion. He cannot even post an add in craigs list without talking to her first. I am very disappointed of M.
M feels my disappointment, and he feels my lack of respect in a very subtle way and he treats me bad to compensate that.
My son and his GF are cooking for TG too and I have to go ther during the day, If M does not go with me I am going to be very happy. If he goes with me, I am going to be very happy. If I have to spend a dinner with the ex I am going to be very stressed.
So, that is where I am. Is this worth it? Like Lighter says, pros and cons. My therapist which I have not seen in several months, said that M is a used car that I will use until I get new one.
I wish I did not have to think that way.
You guys talking to me, is being very helpful. Now, I only need help to find out what to do next. How to create a life of peace. Help me out.