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I just found out....
Izzy_*now*:
Hi TT
Oh ya!
Maybe I thought all that was a means of survival so I could hide in a crowd?
xx
Iz
Hopalong:
--- Quote ---In my opinion, everyone would do well to have a little of the Izzy spunk and smarts.
tt
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Hear, hear, what she said! And your lawyer, too.
The description sounds like one of those "sane crazy" things, meaning, a perfectly LOGICAL adaptation to the kind of loneliness and abandonment and cold and abuse you suffered as a child. You sitting in raspberry bushes but knowing you were not humanly welcome enough to eat a berry? In a tree chewing gristle for sustenance? Beaten by your father?
Enough for me. I'm "schizo" at the thought.
I have a good friend whose child has acute schizophrenia...the full tilt real disease....and is currently in jail pending incarceration in a federal mental health correctional facility. The poor kid is so ill, and the secret service agent assigned to him (for threatening the prez) became almost like a caseworker. They genuinely are trying to save him from himself, and nobody in his family could manage him (adult male now, deeply paranoid and violent tendencies, and naturally--amazing hallucinations) -- so he's been placed into the federal correctional system because that's the only institution powerful enough to get him the complex Rx protocols he needs. The family's HMO was giving him half of what he needed to save costs. His poor Mom had been locking the kitchen knives in the trunk of the car.
Nobody. No kid, no parent, no person -- can bear up under unreasonable stresses without being made and marked by it.
You, Izz? Much less your accident, abandonment by family, and pain...
You amaze me. Wear any acronym you like.
love to you,
Hops
Izzy_*now*:
Thanks Hopsy, and others.......................
Have you read about schizoid?
It is not schizophrenia................................but I had the idea they were so close that I always skipped over schizoid!
--- Quote ---"Schizoid" redirects here. For the game, see Schizoid (video game).
Not to be confused with Schizophrenia, Schizotypal personality disorder, or Schizoaffective disorder.
Schizoid personality disorder (SPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, a tendency towards a solitary lifestyle, secretiveness, emotional coldness and sometimes (sexual) apathy, with a simultaneous rich, elaborate and exclusively internal fantasy world.[1] SPD is not the same as schizophrenia, although they share some similar characteristics such as detachment or blunted affect; there is increased prevalence of the disorder in families with schizophrenia.[2]
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http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Schizoid_personality_disorder
Remember my "secret" of stopping smoking? I posted it under My Story but not on here so I could read about it online and before people might pummel me with questions and I might fail----like my brother is now (his wife cannot stop) and he keeps asking, so my paranoia tells me that he is trying to sabotage me, so in my last email I said that next month was one year, I was sure I had it licked, and now the less said the better, as it is old news.
I keep secrets like that pending success or thoughts of who might approve....whatever reason.
I have said how I don't cry. Sex? Well I could care less after being with 2 drunks and am now in pain...........
.........but I laugh a lot, really a lot and mostly at my own original jokes and they crack up Karla as well.
xx
Izzy
Hopalong:
You're welcome, ((((Izz)))).
Sorry for the rambling off to my friend's story (just heard about her son's latest escapades yesterday).
I know it's just the word root "schizo" that's the same. I imagine many people don't get the distinction.
I know schizotypal PD isn't anywhere near the same thing as the brain disease, schizophrenia.
Just felt like reassuring you that any acronym ("PD" is not a character thing, it's a descriptor) that helps you understand and accept yourself with compassion is a good thing, imo!
xo
Hops
Izzy_*now*:
Oh thanks (((((((Hops)))))))))))) Ever notice how seldom I use the (Hugs), even though they are inside, somewhere.
I'm sorry. I didn't get your meaning about any acronym.
Different sites have different 'qualifications'
Some say, "not wanting to be part of a family"
Well, I don't think my FOO deserves me, so I am 2000 miles away.
I've always felt like a very 'deep' person, but haven't known if the depth was worth anything.
I'm sorry I didn't mention your friend's troubles because that can sound like a movie you saw, like many realities of life that are away out of whack-----in which category I put myself, as feeling so unreal...............too unreal to be understood by the 'common man'...yet I'm not worth a book or movie--even if it were fiction.
I think all this is why I have taken such abuse from my daughter, who I think deserved a real mother.
nightie nightie, but
no nightie tonightie
(they are all in the laundry)
xx
Izzy
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