Just heard from D, prompted by my call to her to let her know the cell phone bill I had agreed to pay at a set level came in triple that. Wrote her an email asking her to take control of or own her usage (she's been saying it was too confusing) or then a prepaid phone would be the only option.
What do you know, she called them, sorted it out, and it's all taken care of until February. I really don't mind paying this basic plan ($80. month). I know it is an absolute lifeline in her situation.
Other part was, she sounds worse. Unable to complete sentences, a bit incoherent. She has done at least one therapy or doctor appt. at the appropriate mental health center where she is. But she's still talking about going back to Florida in the new year, which would be disaster, imo. She needs a taillight, and Rx refills. I get the sense she's trying to line those up so she can get on the road again.
She does talk about how her friends where she is let her sleep on their couches. But she also stated plainly that she is homeless and living out of her car. Both are true.
I took my T's advice and had sent her what felt brutal, which I mentioned here...a list of the free meals available there for the homeless. It still hurts. And I am worried that she'll embrace the label. But maybe she has to. I don't know. I also sent her a description of "geographical cure" -- the AA term that fits so many turbulent situations. Encouraged her NOT to do that to herself. With no stability, a sketchy car, going there now would set herself up for a disaster she might not survive this time. Where she is, there are friends, and resources she can reach (it's not so huge as Miami--and the Miami public tranportation is terrible).
I do feel calmer though. I am accepting that I have offered what I can. I can go there for a day or two and help her with appointments, or list making, etc. Or listening. If my involvement is too triggering, I'm not pressuring her. I said she can come here for a few weeks if she makes appts. with the therapist here. I have offered to store her things in my attic.
It is terribly sad but it is time for faith and thank you PR for the reminder -- releasing the outcome.
She is my beloved only child, but still, she is objectively someone with bipolar disorder that must be adquately treated before her life will change. I can say it, and support that process. And that is all I can do.
thanks for listening--
Hops
