My brother and just life and stuff

[sKePTiKal]

How about some knee high boots with that longer denim skirt? Maybe something in a soft suede that have a flat heel? A pair of tights, and this will go from fall to winter.

Suede can be "revived" - there's a special cleaner for it, then use a short, very stiff (even brass wire) brush to lift the nap again. I've had a number of phases where denim skirts were a staple, when I couldn't wear jeans everyday. I love me some boots (they seem to breed in my closet) as they go with my stretchy legging jeans, skinny jeans... to compliment the "pirate look". Longer blouses, tunics and jackets - et voila! 

I haven't been in a pirate mood much, lately. Taking everything waaay too seriously again - but I see a "break" in that coming up in short order... as therapy.

[Meh]

Yes probably skept

Yawn, I am tired that is all I got to say tonight is Y-A-W-N

[Hopalong]

Morning, Boat, Bean, you Fashion Plate...

And morning PR/Skep, hope all's well there.

Beautiful day here. LB and I had an adventure:
Off to a coffee shop (she rattled in her seat all the way until she realized ummm, nooo, this is not the vet's office, and these nice people are rubbing my ears...and omg, this is a new PARK!, and now...ohhhh scary trucks but whatz an Egg McMuffff....blissssss!).

....she got the meat.

This might be how to convince a traumatized-pooch that Going in the Car Might Be Worth the Risk because...
you
just
never
know...

I"d swear on a stack of something this dog never had a bite of ham in her life.

Joy in Mudville!
 

Hops

[Meh]

LOL sounds good hops, yes I am sure that if she gets pork products everytime she goes for a ride she will learn to look forward to the trip

[Meh]

Went out to see a movie by myself this evening, decided to come home early and departed the theater before it was even over. It was that Elysium movie. Just felt sort of stressed out when watching it, it's kind of a dark movie.

Shrug, I kinda thought I wasn't going to enjoy watching it because I'm in the wrong mood I guess for it.

It's 9 PM here. Haven't found the energy for applying for new jobs though I need to.

[Meh]

This is the weekend when the memorial service is occurring for my brother, probably on Sunday or maybe it is tomorrow, I don't even remember.

Right now I am so tired, I wanted to go up to the store and get a beer and my legs are like concrete. I am going to sleep as soon as my laundry is done. Can't believe how fast my weeks have been going by, like scary fast.

Not even sure what happened today, somebody looking for parts for an ancient item his father owns, people who said that they didn't get what they ordered, or people trying to figure out how to get their stuff for less money sometimes they can't even get their story straight...so and so told me it was brown, no they told me it was material, no they told me it was leather. Sigh.

[Meh]

Sometimes I come here sort of feeling that there could be something that I would write about but then nothing comes out afterall. I think after all is one word. Maybe not.

There are so many things a person could think about. Lots of distractions and stuff. Anything and everything seems to take up space in my mind, and only a few times where I feel like I get an over all glimpse of what the heck is going on in my life. I really have nothing to write about at all. I feel kind of blank.

[Meh]

Well on my Sunday I spent the better half of the day washing stuff and giving myself a "facial"... basically like plucking out my eye brows and "mustache" and actually looking at my skin. It feels like a guilty pleasure just to spend some time taking care of my physical body. I mean for a very long time I have felt like I can't relax and like I have no personal space and I pretty much still feel this way. Even though I have my own bathroom to use at the moment that I don't have to share with anybody...I feel uncomfortable using it. Like I have to hurry and get out of the shower as fast as possible and anywho. My skin doesn't look great, I kind of react to all the coffee I drink. It's kind of a good thing for me to look at myself now and then because it makes me want to adjust my diet. I mean a person doesn't feel good about how they look, it's not really fun to style my hair or get dressed up or anything. And then I Stop really looking in the mirror at all, it's like I just ignore it now. But today for the first time in a long time I spent some time looking at my skin and considering it and noticing my eyebrows and stuff.

I know a lot of people go through this from time to time.....the whole self neglect thing. I'm really tired of it. It's Sunday and I feel guilty for wanting to relax and file my nails....

[Hopalong]

Wow.
I love it that you're perceiving the guilt...
confronting its reality...AND...continuing to
practice some new self-care...in your

OWN

BATHROOM.

Made my day.

xxoo
Hops

[Meh]

Thanks Hops. I've been doing a man-routine, but I am not a dude. Like wash my face with bar of soap...the end.

[Meh]

Since today was a Holiday somehow it was slow at work, I guess most people decided to do something fun and relaxing so didn't call us at the call center. IT was good, I got off of work and the weather was nice. I left an hour early not really sure that I got explicit permission to do so but it was the only way I would catch my bus home. I bought real parmesan on the way home. Made dinner now I am just enjoying the feeling of not being 100% drained emotionally.

I surfed the internet at work, not something I would normally do but hey I did it. I still had to work on a Holiday that most people get off, didn't get paid Holiday time but at least it was relaxing and I have tomorrow off of work because they changed my schedule around.

[Meh]

went on a good walk today, place I haven't been for over 15 years-felt like a mini adventure,  got to see some wide open farm land, didn't realize how close I was to it, saw horses, fields of flowers and smelled some scented geraniums, my fingers still smell like it --thank god for having the experience of just chilling

[Twoapenny]

went on a good walk today, place I haven't been for over 15 years-felt like a mini adventure,  got to see some wide open farm land, didn't realize how close I was to it, saw horses, fields of flowers and smelled some scented geraniums, my fingers still smell like it --thank god for having the experience of just chilling

Sounds fab, green, I find the open countryside so relaxing, for me it's how life should be and people making money just got in the way of all of it.  Hope you get to experience something that nice again soon xx

[Hopalong]

Oh, wow.
I love hearing every small thing that you're responding to,
now that you're out of the shelter and working...

These small pleasures and comforts, like a bathroom,
good grooming, a beautiful walk...

Oh Boat. Gladdens my heart.

May they all continue. And grow.

You are growing a new life.

love
Hops

[sKePTiKal]

Hiya green bean... I can relate to feeling that one "should" spend a little time doing the foo-foo stuff and all the conflict surrounding that. I keep thinking how nice it would be to lounge in a bubble bath and do the whole spa thing - facial mask, nails, etc. But the tick-tock awareness of how much time that would "waste" (not really, but that's what's in my head) keeps me from doing it. Like it's shameful to be so selfish for just wanting a little pampering. (It's NOT.)

I just saw your post today; woke up thinking I really need to give myself half a day to spend on "things I want" vs things I think I need to do, again. It's been awhile since I popped the umbrella open, took a book and lounged by the pool all day like some super-spoiled teenaged rock star... (and maybe that's the image that KEEPS me from actually doing it... it's really funny how that works!!!)