Hi Dear-
Today has been a very bad foot day in a very bad foot season. I have worked like a dog all day, and can't walk at all now, can't put on a shoe or a slide even. Bleeh!
My foot will never get better (unless I can get a cloned one or something similar sewn on- hmmm another movie idea, instead of "The Hand" it could be "The Foot", the hero might get the foot of a N and start terrorizing people ) and is growing inexhorably worse. I got an experimental surgery and can do a lot that I normally wouldn't be able to, but things are going downhill quickly of late. I haven't been doing my therapy, have been doing more than I should in house repairs, etc.The doctors all think that the foot is just about shot (no joints as per he xrays, tarsal nerves twisted and messed up, tendons etc a joke!!!!). My genius man said to delay a fusion surgery as long as possible, as my foot will be static and not able to do much, like a stick. And the pain may very likely not be abated anyway. There are some interim surgical procedures that I can do, but I am trying to finish the lawyer thing up first.
I want to finish school and pass the bar if I can without more surgery, but my mobility is getting compromised more and more and the pain constant and worse. As I said before, if I were a horse they would have been considerate and put me down, but I guess that I have to keep klomping along into the sunset! I avoid the pain meds that I am prescribed unless it is extremely excruciating. That way I never have to graduate to higher dosages and even nuttier drugs in order to take the edge off.
I used to love to run and hike carrying huge heavy packs and now...I need to get my Baby Sammy a dog pack and a saddle! Maybe I could even start a new trend!!!
Love,
Changing